The Blender Board

(moving back a couple of chairs so he can be closer to eve)


psssssssst! Eve! It's safe to pass your poem up to the front now!

hey you all, it's november!!

break out the new poems...

-K

test

*scribbling on a piece of paper - muttering*
I will master haiku ... I will ... I will..

Kevin - you are the word master.. *winks*

Isolde - I am still flattered about "bliss" I am going to print it out .. *grins* and what you said about the layout of the words on the page.. well I work as a Desktop and Web Publisher (when I am not here) so that probally helps me "see" the movement of the words.

I found a book of New Zealand Haiku ... here is one I liked
"Sitting on the bed,
...looking at me,
His reading glasses"

*bell rings for the end of class*
I am out of here.. hometime for me.
dee

So another month's issue is here.

Sorry I haven't been making more of the changes to the site I promised, I'm actively investigating chat and the other things are simmering too. It's a very busy time for me, my real job is releasing the website I've been working on tomorrow and my freelance project's a constant eater of free time. But I always make time for the monthly Blender, even when my computer crashes halfway through going through the month's submissions and I have to begin again. Though I do have to say I'm skimming the Blender Board now instead of reading it, with its greater volume of material.

Anyway, I'm sleepy and have a website rollout tomorrow, so good night. AND REMEMBER: the "front page picks" of any month's digest reflect my prejudices about art and poetry and that's about it. I shouldn't be the ultimate judge of anything...

Thanks for adding "Static Cling" to the front page, Kirk. I really appreciate the fact that you corrected the apostrophes and quotes. I owe you one, bro.

Great job to Angel, ZoE, Misti and Shadygirl. Really respect your works. :-)

I'm sick of being cyber-stalked, so I'll tell you all about myself. Just 27, single, searching and living in Southern California. Had a couple of sour relationships, but still a hopeless romantic.

Still writing mediocre poetry. Maybe I'll share a piece of my heart with all of you soon. :-}

Take care.
Scott

Thak you for loveing mi poem
I am so happy!

Brandi

Kirk,

Well, I believe I just sent the happiest first grader in
the world off to school...She was thrilled to have made the board...she was jumping up and down telling the bus driver.
She says she is going to write another...that she is still
in love with the little boy who was her inspiration for
heartshine. Thanks!

Angel

CONGRATULATIONS to all who made this months front page,
especially my own talented little six year-old. Funny,
how most of the picks would have been mine also. Great
work! Kevin,Marla,heartsong,shady and ZoE.

Angel

ON KIRKS" RAMBLE Mo,

He painted it in CYBER SKY for you! Sweet~

Angel

(the teacher calls on him as he looks around to make sure no mistake is being made)

I agree with Kirk’s ramble. I conversed with Marla about one of her poems a couple of weeks ago about this very subject. I too used to rationalize away the meaning of those three vital words. I used to believe that (being a lover of words as I am) saying “I love you” too often diluted the meaning of those words. What a fool I was to think that. It was by a close friend of mine (a woman, of course) that I was properly reproved and disabused of this notion. By my reckoning, I need to tell my wife those three words about two hundred times a day, for the rest of my life to compensate for my lunacy.

When you are in a truly committed relationship that is built to last, claiming ownership for the intent behind those three words is absolutely vital for the continued growth of love. When truly coming from the depths of a heart of a woman, the utterance of “I love you” is the most romantic thing that can be said. But most men (at least the men in my milieu) don’t have their emotions attuned to receive that. As a man, I would have to say that we are socialized to behave differently, and behavior in this case tends to mold the feelings, or at least leads us to subsume them in our actions. We, at least in this culture, are ‘doers,’ and so feel that showing our love for that significant other should be enough to get the point across. Well, it does fall short, for as Kirk points out “sometimes the deeds alone aren’t enough.” If you do not claim ownership of the intent behind what you do for the one you truly love, thereby pouring your heart, soul, and mind into the deed, acts motivated by love become nothing more than random kindness. And romance is the polar opposite of anything that could be considered random.

So, to the love of my life, for now and forever, I love you.

-K

p.s. - thanks for the selection of "Never in fashion." That proves to me yet again that I can never know whether what I write will strike people in the way I am struck at first writing, or second reading of my own words. I also found my metaphor to capture that truism, although it was not behind the original inspiration...

(trying to hide now from the teacher)

pssssst! hey everyone, kudos to all for some really great stuff this past month! But especially to ZoE. My dear, you *do* possess a talent for this, and the poem Kirk picked is everything HE says it is. There is a growing depth to what you are doing, and we all knew you had it in you! Can't wait for more. So a special tip of the hat to you, ZoE.

heart Song, :-) (words can't say)
Shady, Marla, thanks for inspiring me...

-K



-K

Good Morning everyone!
Hope everyone had a great weekend and safe Halloween!

I had a great weekend!

Congratulations to all of us that made the front page of the Blender!!! :-)

shady :-)

(standing up in front of the class, <blushing>, and horribly embarrassed)

ANGEL,

I am so sorry! Of course I forgot to credit you with some direct inspiration (remember the "human organ smoothie"???). Please accept my humble apologies...

(slinking back into another seat, moving back to the corner to hide)

-Kevin

Starting a forum...

QUESTION: Tell me/us about the more romantically UNIQUE or HUMOROUS things that have been said to you. Skip the standard stuff. Lets hear something just a little out of the ordinary.

I'll start off. Here's one of the more memorable ones that have tickled me:
"When I'm with you, I'm almost jealous of myself!"

Congratulations Everyone!

I am so proud to be included in such a wonderful group of people who have become such dear dear friends!

You may not know how often I come to this place to find peace and comfort in the words that I read here.

Many of you have been a source of strength to me, a friend to laugh with laugh with a shoulder to cry on.

And today I would just like to say to all of you.

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!

oh and how can I forget to say thanks to the creater!

Kirk,

You have been my life saver, because without you there would be no blender! Thank you most of all. I really think you've got a great thing going and do you know how many lives you have touched and how many friends you have brought together. People always say, if I could touch one persons life, If I could make a difference, then it will be worth it. I will have achieved something! Kirk, you've done that and more. There really are no words to make thank you mean enough!

~Melissa~

SJ:

Well, at the risk of being immodest, one quote *I* made was "Sometimes us romantic adventurers get bopped in the nose." (April 26 1996) The lesson I learned from that day was take a little care when sneaking kisses on body parts that might be sticking out of the blanket.

Seemed amusing at the time, at any rate.

~Kev~

{{{you make me smile}}} ~~~:)
I posted the poem, made a little change.
Thanks Kev...HUG! ....

Congrads to all on the front page!!:)
I swear tomorrow I am sitting down and catching up on the blender! I miss sitting and reading and enjoying everyones work!!! (Homework, house work, all work can wait!! I need a Blender fix!!!!)

Cant believe its November already!! Brrrr, cold too!

Hey Marla...have you been in rollin my yard!! LOL!!
Someone thought one of my tree's would look good with TP hanging in it LOL!! Was it u???? :)

First of all I want to congratulate all my friends who have made the cover including my little friend "brandi" who is becoming quite a poet taking after her mommy!I also want to really thanks Kirk(for making this all possible,he is a true master) along with all the friends I have made on here. They are all great poets/poetesses and great friends. My life has been enriched by both knowing and sharing my poetry with them.Special *hugs* go to HeArTsOnG,KeViN,AnGeL,ShAdY,MiStY,IsOlDe!
in regards to the funniest thing you've ever been told "romantically".Well, mines not particularly romantic but a pick up line that i thought was kind of funny was once used on me:"Does your mother work in a juice factory,because you're so VERYFINE!"
Someone once said something funny to me romantically though:"everyday i see you i wonder what it's like to be you without knowing what a beautiful,caring person you are." i thought that was sweet but at the time all i could do was blush and supidly mumble,"your nice too!"
--------------------------ZoE

I found your site this summer and found it to have some very good poetry and prose. It was extremely moving. But for the last 2-3 months when I have looked at your site, while you have listed it as new and added a new month's name to the home page, all of the content has remained the same for several months. Maybe it is just a matter of not getting new submissions, but I hope this site stays alive for it is wonderful to read and feel.

Hi everyone!

Aw, I see everyone is feeling especially mushy with the new issue of the Blender...you guys kill me, I just love ya all!

*hugS* to all of you!!

The funniest romantic thing...? Hmmm...well, this is a little personal, but, it was really sweet, and amusing...I am an artist, so I paint alot, and sculpt, well, my ex, who was not much into the arts, least of all museum kind, decided to surprise me and act out a scene from "Ghost"...what he forgot was that Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze are magically all cleaned up, and all over eachother with in seconds in the movie...clay takes a little more time to clean up in real life...it didn't quite end up the way he wished, but it was alot of fun and silliness anyways. :-)

We have to ask more questions like this, I love traveling down all the little paths to cutesy memories of lost loves...:-) This is stuff I haven't thought of in forever...thanks for the reminder!! :-)

I have one more story, this one is funny, has nothing to do with romance, but all of the parents may get a kick out of it. A friend of mine's little brother made a cute little scene at a family party over the weekend. He's about 2-3, somewhere around there, and he was watching tv, and he yelled for his mom to come in the room, so everyone's attention was grabbed of course, and he yelled out, pointing to the tv at Tori Spelling, of all people, "Mommy, I just wanna bite her hiney!". (spell check) She said everyone cracked up, and he started crying, but, I thought it was such a cute story. :-)

Well, now that I've written my book for the day...

g'night!
shady

Hello everyone! I feel like I've been away forever but I'm here until Friday then I move and will probably be down for a week or so :-( I am already feeling the effects of withdrawal.

Kirk,

Thanks so much for picking my poems this month. "Mississippi Here I Come" was a little different than my usual style, but so vivid in my mind because I played out that scene so often for such a long time.

To whomever asked about the most romantic thing or whatever it exactly asked, here's mine...

The first night I met Sean we were walking down the riverwalk and he pulled me into a dark corner grabbed me close to him and said "Now that we're engaged what do we do" I replied "I don't know, I guess we buy the book". Little did he know he had just sealed his fate :-)

Anyway, he is here finally, so no more sad I miss you poems, let's hope!!!! YEAH!!!

Well, he's harassing me as always, he just doesn't understand the importance of and addiction of this site :-) Catch you all later.

Marla

My tidbit for the forum~

Quite a few years ago(I won't say how many) after a
clumsy yet somewhat passionate first kiss, my new lover boy
looked at me amazed and said,"I can almost taste your heart!"
hmmmmmm! whataya think?

Angel

(standing up in front of class again)

Eve-

YES! I love your poem even more now than when it was an infant in your e-mail... I am so happy that we bounced that word's meaning off of each other. The words of this place certainly texturize our lives, don't they! Outstanding work, Eve...

(teacher tells him to 'siddown, ya stooge!')

-K

Hello. My name is Jasmine, but my real name is Amanda. I go by Jasmine because that is my favorite shade of purple. Anyways, I'm new to this site. I am 16 years old and I love basketball & writing poetry. I have three adorable nephrews.
I am the youngest of 6 children. My youngest(oldest) sister just got married two weeks ago. I live in Texas. But, I guess I will go now. Be back later.


BuBYe,
Jazz

Firstly... I am glad to see three of my faves on the cover this month... Kevin, Romeo .. how I wish you guys could teach Ade a thing or two on words...

Brandi ... Well done sweet thing.

and - Kirk, thanks for adding in those paintings for me... I feel that both poems don't seem so "bare" now that they are together.

Funny/unique thing ever said...
I made my husband ask my parents hand in marriage, (ok call me old fashioned.. *grins*)
Ade said to my mother.. " I like her, I want to marry her." (how is that for romantic... *rolls her eyes*)

Another time.. we where at night club, he was going to the bar and asked me "what I wanted" (meaning what drink) I put on my best sexy voice, put my arms about his neck, and whispered in his ear "I want YOU" ... "you've got me." he replied and walked to the bar...

dee

Eve -
I have just read "Tell me - I'll try"
Oh wow.. I loved it.. wow.. I don't even know how to express how I felt about your words...
-thankyou.

dee

Shadygirl,

I liked your comment about the forum questions. "...traveling down all the little paths to cutesy memories of lost loves" I totally agree. It is far more enjoyable to read and participate in a conversation that has deep unough meaning to make you think and feel. I started walking down that path trying to remember a cute romantic instant and it was just the key I needed to open a floodgate. I must have just sat for the past hour just re-discovering all those dusty memories with a huge smile on my face. One particular memory had me laughing out loud to myself, but the story is too long for the board. So I'll have to write it up in a short story form later and share it.

Angel. I love that quote about tasting your heart. Good one.

(okay, okay, i check this place out at work too!!!)

Jenna-

Your poem "You Forget and I'll Remember" evokes within me a bittersweet emotion. I was deeply touched by this particular work... I empathize with the feeling you emote here. As a male, I can only say I realize that many of us are exactly the way you describe, yet I also wish it were not so... Two things I believe down to the core of my being are this:

1. The opposite of love is indifference. I believe that if you fall completely out of love, then it was never really love to begin with. (That makes the concepts of falling 'in' and 'out' of love rather foreign to me...)

Passion once ignited takes on a whole range of manifestations. You captured one of these manifestations beautifully in the lines

"I turned around and gave him a long, hard kiss. One that
consisted of passion and anger. I never kissed anyone with so much intensity."

2. A woman's heart never forgets that it has loved.

Perhaps most men think they can turn love on and off like a light switch. Again, you conveyed this well, I thought:

"He said he wanted to forget!"

Now, a hurt that such a thought can bring I *have* felt before. Perhaps that is the single most hurtful thing any man could ever tell a woman. This, coupled with belief number two certainly leads to the conclusion in my mind that the best place for a man to find out about love is through the exploration of a woman's heart...

just my 2 cents, plus interest...

-K

(looks as if im the "new kid" in the class)

Kevin-
Thank you for the feedback on my poetry! It feels good knowing someone can relate to your work! Anyway, what you said about the opposite of love being indifference and that if you fall out of love you were never really in it in the first place, I have always agreed with that. I tried to explain it to my friends once but they continued on to explain that everyone in the world is a liar then because the phrase "I love you" is said once to often to too many people. (or something like that) May i also tip my hat at your work entitled "you drive my pen" Moving on.. not only did i get yor 2 cents but interest too (i feel special!) Ha ha ha.

- - Jenna

One of the most memorable things said to me was by my boyfriend, when we first met. I even wrote a poem about it entitled "beautiful." He kept staring at me and i asked him to stop and he said "Im sorry if i like to stare at beautiful things." It may sound like an old fashioned one, but before and after then no to this day (other then him) has called me beautiful. It was always cute, or innocent, but never beautiful.

--Jenna

One of the most memorable things said to me was by my boyfriend, when we first met. I even wrote a poem about it entitled "beautiful." He kept staring at me and i asked him to stop and he said "Im sorry if i like to stare at beautiful things." It may sound like an old fashioned one, but before and after then no one to this day (other then him) has called me beautiful. It was always cute, or innocent, but never beautiful.

--Jenna

(whispering to no one in particular)

Perhaps it is I who utter the humorous in my relationship with the love of my life. I love to make her smile and laugh... The other day she was watching television stretched out across the bed, and I knelt down next to the bed, and just watched her. I just put my hand in my chin and gazed at her with those 'lovey-dovey' eyes, in wonder that I feel more love for her with each passing day. She looked at me, rather puzzled, and asked, "What are you doing?" I answered, "I'm just watching you." She smiled and said, "You're silly!"

Love is spoken in such moments...

-K

H A P P Y (late) B I R T H D A Y!
J E S S I C A

Angel and Brandi

Hey everyone! Happy Tuesday!

Angel, I loved your story, "taste your heart" how cute!!!

Dee, you are so funy. I was cracking up when I was reading what you wrote about your husband...you just gotta love the way men are...how silly...:-)

T.K., thanks, I can't wait to hear your long story...:-) e-mail me! :-)

Jenna, I can relate to the 'beautiful' comment. I'm always told I'm cute, because of how I act or something, but never pretty or anything. LOL, last week at my aunt's wake, everyone in our family we haven't seen in a while was saying how handsome my brother has become, and they actually said "and you are still so...alert." to me. (That kinda hurt then, but it's amusing now...:-) But one guy told me I was beautiful once upon a time. It's amazing how being beautiful just once, in one person's life, can be enough. ya know?

Kev, hehe...you ARE silly ;-)

HiHo HiHo, it's off to work I go...:-)

shady

WOW! I can't believe how many new subs. there are...I"m so far behind in my reading...but I've been soooo busy lately...school functions,family gatherings,setting out bulbs and mums....Whew! I'm pooped! But, Mac is back...YOU
KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS :-) CATCH-UP TIME!...I will read later.
Toodle-loo!

Angel

(whispering to Shady)

psssssssssssssst!
hey, Shady!
I THINK YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!!!!
:-)

-K

Kev,

I know you too well, I was almost going to add to that last comment for you not to say that, because I knew you would...LOL...(or maybe I didn't add it just so I COULD hear it...bad bad bad me:-)

Thank you though...so sweet. :-)


shady

Online Blender Chat is up!
http://loveblender.com/chat.html - I'm asking some of the regulars on the Blender Board to try it out before I make a big deal announcement of it.

I'm using java chat, with almost all of the service provided by the fine folks at www.chatplanet.com. A Blender reader Dave also suggested the software at http://everychat.ml.org/ , which is entirely HTML based. If a lot of people have trouble with the java, (or if chatplanet ever proves to be a problem) I might switch to that instead, or maybe some javascript homebrew solution.

Anyway, I'd like to keep bug reports and the like here on the Blender Board, instead of in my mailbox.

Have fun,
Kirk

Jasmine,

or whomever you really are... I am curious, last week you submitted a comment saying:

From: Jasmine
Date: 28 October 1998
Hello everyone. I'm new here.

I read about Mandy. That is soo sad!!

But, let me tell you about myself. I'm 17 years old, I have a 2 year old daughter. Her name is Abigail. I have been married for 3 years and I still love my husband very much.
And I am expecting my 2nd child.

But, hope to talk to you all later.


Bye,
Jazz

Which no offense, but I found the whole comment to be very uncouth. I don't think death and introductions are appropriate together. But then again, that's my opinion. Needless to say, that's not the point. The point is... now you submitted this comment, sorry if I seem to be confused, but really is this whole farce necessary?

From: Jasmine
Date: 2 November 1998
Hello. My name is Jasmine, but my real name is Amanda. I go by Jasmine because that is my favorite shade of purple. Anyways, I'm new to this site. I am 16 years old and I love basketball & writing poetry. I have three adorable nephrews.
I am the youngest of 6 children. My youngest(oldest) sister just got married two weeks ago. I live in Texas. But, I guess I will go now. Be back later.


BuBYe,
Jazz

I mean I guess you forgot who you were. I know, it happens some time, right? Anyway, just wanted to let you know in case you forgot.

To my fellow blenderites...

Sorry I just had to point this out, I'm not trying to be vindictive, I just can't stand stuff like this!

Marla

Good eye Marla! I had thought something was weird the first time I read her thing, about Mandy, but I had not made the connection.

Kirk, I tried Chat, but no one else was on, it seems to work well though! So far...:-)

Everyone!!! We have to designate a time to try this out for Kirk!!! I am home tonight, from 5pm to 7pm E/T, and I should be home around 10pm after that. If anyone will be free and wants to give it a whirl with me, I'd love to chat. K?

shady

Hey everyone, I finally got a chance to go through all of the new submissions!! After only 3 days!!! Geepers, you all!!!

Kirk should make a daily issue (just kidding Kirk...hehe;-)!!!

ZoE - "my heart" - even though I’m not sure if it is considered a haiku, I really like it. The words you used were perfect, simple, just perfect. :-)
"page ripped out..." anger, I love anger in poetry, it is so much more real, seemingly. Less foggy, to the point. I love what you did here.

Kevin - from "wordmaster" to lovemaster, eh? Loved it...

Angel - "Smile" - very cute…creative...
I loved "lost" too...a lot...
"Thru my heart’s eyes" Oh that last line was great..."sharp love"...you were busy!!!

Meg - "After great friends" that was really good. As with ZoE, the portrayal of anger, fear, self-pity...very emotional work!

Jenna - "That’s Mine" - YOU GO GIRL!!!
"You forget and I’ll Remember" once again, another great piece.

Romeo - "Blush" - that is so cute...so sweet…a creative gift for a lover indeed...;-)

Well, I'm off to lunch!!

shady

Guys, if people want to play with their identities, it's their business, just so long as they don't try to steal other people's. That's one of the cool aspects of cyberspace, you can try out different roles. Yes, that means you have to take what you read onscreen with a grain of salt, but it beats all this "unmasking" that people seem compelled to do.

In regards to multiple identities, for the most part I agree with Kirk as long as it is done with some degree of good taste or legititmate reason. What do I mean by this? Authors use multiple pen names all the time for various reasons because it lends to or even separates their different types of work. Sometimes you want to change or use a different identity simply for privacy reasons. As long as it doesn't hurt or insult anyone in anyway, no problem. However, when one does start inventing and using different identities solely for the enjoyment of fooling or deriving entertainment at the expense of others or worse, I feel that crosses the line and shows a severe lack of integrity and class. And for that, I have no respect at all.

I agree with "The next letter..."...

And it seems most of us have been made the center of fun-poking by various 'identities' on the Board recently. Hell, if someone wants to pretend they are someone else, that's their prerogative, but, I personally feel like a putz when I am talking about personal things with 'friends' who end up not being who they really are, I would appreciate not having to go through that. I don't disagree with Marla pointing out the "Jazz" falsehood. I appreciate it.

shady

heart Song,

Another sweet something...:-) I really liked "Please",
especially the last line, using the word "let",
doesn't give the work the usual feeling of helpless-out-of-control-ness...

Very nice!

shady :-)

When you walk, its the walk of beauty
When you smile, its the smile of grace
And when I find true beauty, its found upon your face
When up at night and thinking of days and days to come
It makes me think of what I'd do, to be your only one
I know this might suprise you
But trust me it is true
(girls name goes here)
I am falling in love with you.

~Kirk~

I tried to get into ~Blender chat~...
It connected, well it said it did...?? But nothing happened.
Has anyone else tried? Shady, you out there?

~Kev~

(sitting quietly, blushing...feeling warm & mushy inside!)
Thxs Kev, sharing anything with you!! Is always a pleasure!!

~~Deeva~~

Owww! I'm reallt blushing now!! :)
Thanks for the kind words!!!

Shady,

Thank you! I'm glad you liked "Please" and I'm glad you appreciated the key word! I'm just glad I finally found time to submit.

I noticed right off that Jasmine used a different story the second time and I also felt that the comment on Mandy was not quite right. How did all this make me feel.

You know, I don't know how to explain it! I was heart broken and upset when I read about Mandy and her son, and if it was a joke I hope whoever pulled it off is very happy with themselves and let me be the first to say congratulations. I will admittedly say that I am naive! I am a gentle caring person who takes people at face value, I would have never suspected that I may have been decieved except that a friend of mine pointed it out. That someone would actually be bent enough to play with peoples feelings! All I do know is that I mourned for the lose of two people I didn't know! I was quite upset! And I'm not sorry for that. Because I know who I am and what I feel is real and I'm proud that I am naive, and I'm proud that in this sometimes cold, hard, sinicle world that I have not been dragged down to that very level and I am not going to let it happen now! I am who I am, and who I appear to you to be! And I know who my friends are here, and nothing anyone does or says is going to change that!

Eve,
I was just in the chatroom and noticed that you just left! Pretty snazzy!

Great going Kirk!
I'm going back there now!

~kirk~

I did get in...:)
But no one was around...
I had 'asked' if thier were any "Blenderites" here?
Someone asked..."What the hell is that!!" lol!!!

I answered, some really wonderful people!!
I truly cant wait to chat with you all!!
And get to know more about you :)

Kirk, I do want to thank you! For this wonderful forum!
I have met some wonderful people, made great friends!!
This site has enriched my life!! And I owe this to you!
Thanks for all your hard work and all the time you put into it! :) Hugs for Kirk!!! And a big big round of applause!!

ps....:) think the line out gettin' bopped in the nose was so cute!!

Yeah, you tend to get a lot of people on the chat board who are obviously channel surfing. It is tough to schedule people.

It's Tuesday night, 7pm EST, I'm going to check the chat board intermittently over the evening. (I wish there was a way to broadcast an alertsound to all the people lurking on it.)

*totally inspired and not sure where to start*
eve... I ment it, I thought "Tell me, I'll try" was fantastic.
heartsong - " Please" captured me... *grins*

Romeo - I argee with Shady (I think it was Shady) what a perfect gift.

Jessica - "I want to be in love" I thought it was sweet.

Isolde - Ethereal Joining.. *deevaa once again bows to the haiku goddess*

*deevaa dances about...* I am so inspired.. I don't know if I should pick up my brushes or my pen!!

dee

Yippy! *excited about the chatroom*.
At first I thought the teenage mom thing in here was just a coincidince but now i see their are a few out to deceive! *ok,now i feel a little stoopid and naive that i beleived the whole thing!*
ShAdY,
thanks for the compliments on my "sorta haiku"! i tried...thanks for making me smile!

HeArTsOnG-i really liked "please" especially when you said "teach me to love"
ShAdY-"sun without you",what can i say....you are the best,that poem really sucked me in!
"the blush"-A sweet one KeV,i loved it!:) made me smile!
---------------------------ZoE

Hey all...

ZoE, I hope I did not offend you with the 'sorta haiku' thing...I can be so darn rude...with out meaning to be...thank you for your comment on Sun, with out you...:-)

heart Song, Nice to see you, I feel like I never get to see you anymore...busy little bee...;-)

Kev, thanks for your e-mail, I'll write back in the morning. I'm kinda pooped now, just got home.

Everyone else...goodnight! Sweet dreams ;-)


shady

Hey! Is "Ouch" a Haiku? I just re-read it after reading you guys work and now to me it looks like a Haiku! If it is I didn't know it. I think this Haiku thing is very contagious and I want to know who gave me the germs!
All in all, I think it's a very deep little peice, If I do say so myself, and everytime I read it I have to rub my cheek!

I absolutely can't believe all the great work so soon!
ZoE, I truely loved "Pages Ripped" all your work so far this month has just been great!
Thanks Kevin, You are our "Wordmaster"!
Angel, thanks to you and Brandi for Jess' Birthday wish. I'm glad that Mac is back! I love "Lost" you just have a way with words!
Meg, I really loved "After Great Friends"! Thanks for submitting it!
Deevaa, "Stars" was Brilliant! Loved it!
Eve, "You Forget, I'll try" was great! I admire such tact! Great finisher!
Jenna, "That's Mine" that is me! "You Forget, and I'll remember" I absolutely loved it!!!!!!!!!
Jessica, I want to be in love too! Great work! Great feeling!

And it's just the 3rd! It's going to be a great month!
oh, and sorry about writting that book!

Hey! Is "Ouch" a Haiku? I just re-read it after reading you guys work and now to me it looks like a Haiku! If it is I didn't know it. I think this Haiku thing is very contagious and I want to know who gave me the germs!
All in all, I think it's a very deep little peice, If I do say so myself, and everytime I read it I have to rub my cheek!

I absolutely can't believe all the great work so soon!
ZoE, I truely loved "Pages Ripped" all your work so far this month has just been great!
Thanks Kevin, You are our "Wordmaster"!
Angel, thanks to you and Brandi for Jess' Birthday wish. I'm glad that Mac is back! I love "Lost" you just have a way with words!
Meg, I really loved "After Great Friends"! Thanks for submitting it!
Deevaa, "Stars" was Brilliant! Loved it!
Eve, "You Forget, I'll try" was great! I admire such tact! Great finisher!
Jenna, "That's Mine" that is me! "You Forget, and I'll remember" I absolutely loved it!!!!!!!!!
Jessica, I want to be in love too! Great work! Great feeling!
Shady, Your writing has taken a turn! Great Depth!

And it's just the 3rd! It's going to be a great month!
oh, and sorry about writting that book!

I can't believe I did that.

A silent prayer

Dear Lord,
Please let kirk get one of those repeat submission off the board before the morning so everyone doesn't see what a goof I am.(The first one Kirk, I added something to the second one, I thought I cancelled the first one!) Thank you Lord,

Amen

Oh, and God Bless everyone!

Amen!

(whispering)

psssssssst!
ZoE!!!
hey, Romeo was the one who wrote "blush."
I won't speak for him...

-K

(standing up and clearing his throat)

heart Song-

Your latest songs take my breath away. I sit motionless, waiting for the abundance of the emotions your poems have filled me with to soak into me. There are not yet words invented to describe what that feels like. But I shall try once I am full... To have your songs is to feel them as any beautiful music. Thank you.

Heather-

I was touched by your poem "For Everything There is a SEASON" as well. It is in the change that comes with this season that my own awareness of love becomes heightened. Love is everywhere. Not everyone is lucky enough to find "The One." Some do, and lose them... But loving someone and being perfected in and by your love for them and their love for you can overcome any paucity of luck. True love can overcome just about anything if given free rein... So keep running that race...

-K

Slips in the back door ... gives note to teacher saying "Crickettt has been absent due to making final wedding plans".

Hi guys! Seems the chill of November has brought out the best in you. There are some REALLY great pieces already this month.

Angel
"Lost" ... you just keep getting better

Kevin
"this mood, this process" all bandaids removed I see : )

Romeo
awwww Romeo .. "Blush" .. she is a lucky girl!

HeartSong
"Please" ... I always look for your work, easy to relate too

Eric
"dancing gown" ...can see her, love still in her eyes

Zoe
And then there is Zoe ... "said it's never be this way". You express emotions far beyond your years.

Heather
"seasons" ....Perfect timing for this one. I hope to "see" more of your words

And to all the rest I failed to mention ... "bravo" !!!

hey everyone...hump day has arrived.

heart Song,
Thank you for your 'added' comment...;-)

hehe...


shady

Hey all...just read the rest of the new submissions...:-)

ZoE - "said it’d never be this way"…oh my lord…it is amazing…very emotional…imagery is outstanding, your descriptions and colorful explanations add so much flavor. I really loved it, Reread it in fact, something I do not do often (since I read most of them at work...bad me...:-)

heart Song - I really liked "Ouch"…very sad…and "reaching" was very nice too, very soft.

lorimeyers - "soimaskeptic" - very good, I enjoyed it, the twist at the end…expected, but needed, and added a touch of amusement. :-)

Kev - ""Given freely" - honey, we could never get rid of you that easily…hehe…you’re in each of us now. You’ve never been just cold words on a screen. I liked this, a perfect example of why it is so nice to know more about each other on the Board than just the typical romance chatter…:-)

Even more great work everyone!

OK! I am all caught up...I think! Thank you guys!

Little ZoE! "my heart" sooo raw.......

Eve "*Tell me,I'll Try*", beautiful...really loved the 3rd
stanza,'close your eyes baby, find me,breath in my spirit,
melt into me let my words love you in my abscence...."Ahhhh!

Jenna,"You Forget and I'll Remember"...I could feel the sting...see the tears flow...very emotional!

jessica, "I Want To Be In Love", heartwarmingly fresh!

Kevin, "This mood, this process"...so true...we do feed
and grow on the words and acts of others!

Romeo,"Blush", a male blushing, always captures my heart!

heartsong,"Please".....sooooo endearing!
"A Book of Lessons", you taught me a thing or two!
NO!,heartsong,you are the one who has a way with words-you
never cease to amaze me!

lorimeyers, "soimaskeptic", I remember that feeling all too well!

Shady! "Shedding Midnight"...'I step on your fallen laugh'
caught my eye instantly...the other words trailed very well!

MARLA~ AND WHERE ARE YOU? I MISSED YOU OVER THERE!

~ I'd like to say to all of my Blenderite friends that it is great to be here amongst you and be able to share this one common love that has united us...the love of beautiful words...pleasantly and painfully penned emotions...I feed on this 'stuff' and all of your words are blended and absorbed into my soul, and I hope reflected back to you in my own maturing works. Thank You!

~ Also, I'd like to tell you that my little Brandi has started another poem-sounds GREAT so far! GO BRANDI!

Angel

SJ:

I simply LOVED "Cut the Facade." I don't have the words to tell you how much...unfortunately.

I feel your feelings.... We all want to make a connection, NOT to be single anymore... want to meet "the one" who will
understand (and love) our sensitive side, our ability to feel, who will appreciate our beautiful words on paper (although they often eminate from pain)...we WANT someone to WANT us for jour passion and empathy. But, why, oh why, can't they handle it, in the end?

Just read "White Noise", by Jeannemarie.....I really related
to that ONE ...loved the last line!

Angel

Zoe,
My reply to your questions about my favorite music was stuck on last month's board, in case you missed it.
Scott/Romeo,
Thanks for the compliment! I've always wanted to live in
Southern California. I've visited L.A. three different times and I loved it. I hope to make it back there someday. I'm a native Texan and proud of it but people tend to be too conservative and conformity-oriented in these parts.
I STILL HAVEN'T HEARD FROM JOSH!!! WAAAAA!!!):

It was nice to come home to so many wonderful new submissions. I just finished reading them all. I especially enjoyed all the new haiku (my favorite, as always)...I just love opening those little packages.


Kevin-
"Wordmaster" - I liked the "building" metaphor & language
"When words..." - a beautiful poem, how can I not be moved?

Angel-
"Smile" - very clever! I always like the "visual" aspect of the words on the page, and you used it well.

Eric-
"dancing gown" - a powerful image (still stuck in my mind)

Shady-
"Suddenly Midnight" - excellent title & imagery

heartSong-
"A Book of Lessons" - very moving in it's sincerity
"Ouch" - a great haiku!

crickettt-
"Love's Fabric" - nice haiku. I liked the way you carried the "sewing" imagery and theme throughout


It's nice to be back...

-Isolde

Shady, I'm climbing the mountain!


Marla, for godsake girl come up for air would ya? LOL

While the class sits quietly...From the back of the room.
A sniffel, a deep sigh.... Eve stands up, (ya know the quiet one) with a tear running down her cheek! She whispers...
Group hug, group hug!!! I am having a miserable, miseriable day...sniff...my heart is heavy...!! Had a misunderstanding with my baby! Wondering...why do men turn to silence when they are upset??? Me...sniffel sniffel...I cry, then feel guilty for everything!!!...Silence cuts twices as deep! I'd rather he said something, even yelled anything but this!
Oh woe is me....Hi icky ho Hi ichy ho off to work I go!!

ps...heartsong & poetic angel, sorry i had to be so short last night. Hope to met up again with you guys :)

Eve - Babe I hardly know you... but damn! ((((hug))))
My man doesn't have much of a way with words (I think I have proved that already!) but he also uses silence as his weapon... Ggrrrrrrr...

deevaa

As far as the "unmasking of Jasmine" issue goes:

While I understand Kirk's point that the assuming of alternate identities might appeal to some as a way to spice up their participation in cyberspace, I disagree with his apparent theory that it is always okay "just so long as they don't try to steal other people's" (identities).

In my opinion, it stops being okay when they are assuming different identities for the express purpose of manipulating the emotions of others. For me, that crosses the line from having fun with an alternate identity to intentional cruelty and mind games. (I thought "The Next Letter" addressed this entire topic quite eloquently).

While the "Jasmine" posts were mildly irritating to me (and yes, I noticed the inconsistencies right away, and even found her first post odd), the truly hurtful part, in my opinion, would be if Jasmine is also Mandy and Mandy's mother. I was truly moved by the news of Mandy's death, along with her young son. I shed tears.

Perhaps that means I am an overly sensitive sap. Perhaps when I saw the post from Mandy's mother, I should have taken it with a "grain of salt", and told myself that it might not be true, so I won't allow myself to feel anything about it. But what if it was true? What if I didn't allow myself to be moved by such a tragic loss because it might be just a joke, just a manipulative mind game on someone's part? What a truly a double edged sword...

If the Mandy posts were just an intentional sick joke on someone's part, I for one do not think that qualifies as harmless or legitimate "fun with identities" in cyberspace.

Just my opinion-
Isolde

Isolde,

And a good one at that! Thanks for your comments on "The Book" and "Ouch" I didn't even know I could write a Haiku! I guess my subconcious wrote it! Thanks for the subliminal lessons!

Eve, HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgggggggggggggg!
Here one for fun!

Gladly will I give a word to the wise
Become a nun Forget the guys!

Hey, no offense guys!!!

Thank you to everyone who wrote about "Numb." Guess I was
having a bad day that day (to say the least). Much better today...and for that I am HAPPY!!!!

It's so nice having a place on the net to come and read and share what's inside. The feedback is wonderful and always makes me feel better. I love the connection between everyone.

Thank you, Kirk, for making this all possible. From the sound of your schedule and life, sounds like you are pretty busy. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for taking the time to put this all together, and to keep it going month after month after month. No small feat. You should feel great that you have brought so much into people's lives.

Everyone, have a great Wednesday (what's left of it). Take care.

I guess that I'd have to say one of the most romantic and/or touching things he has ever said to me was... when he was just looking at me and began to cry (we were listening to the stereo at the time and I thought he was touched by a song). I asked him what was wrong. He looked at me, shook his head and said "I just love you so much." And, being the romantic/sappy person that I am.... I melted into oil on the floor and cried too.

Thanks cRiCkEtT and ShAdY for your compliments on "it wasn't supposed to be this way". i was debating whether or not to post it but i think i needed to....so i did!*hugs* ShAdY>no offense taken about my crappy haiku!:)
Thanks AnGeL for your compliments on "my heart". wasn't sure if it was a love poem but decided to post it anyway! *hugs*
MiSti,
I didn't miss your post....hope you didn't miss mine 'cause i told about the music i like!
Eric,
"Dancing gown",left an impression on me....i hope you continue to post!
-----------------------------ZoE

Isolde, thank you for your comment on Shedding Midnight. :-)

heart Song,
Hun, dear lord...I hope you have the proper equipment...hehe...I'm sure the view will be beautiful once you get to the top! ;-)

Eve hun, chin up. Men and women will never be the same, just have to accept that. The day the average man comes to terms with his emotions and allows himself to have a real emotional outburst...hell will freeze over. :-)(that excludes every guy in the Blender, you all are WAY above average, except Mobius...LOL) Don't let it get ya down hun, stay strong!! *BIG HUG*

Jeanmarie,
That is so sweet! I'd have cried too, you're no wuss!!! :-)


Talk to you all later!!
shady

KIRK:

Can you PLEEEEEZE take out the description of the following THREE poems I submitted today: "Can't Find the Words, Ants, Even the Beautiful Get Sad." MAJOR GOOF!!! Sorry.

Thank you!

crickett - loves fabric,
kevin - given freely,
Jeanmarie - With him,
Heartsong - Ouch and enfolded in my soul ....
mmmmmm-mmmmnnnnnn .... liked em all!!

BTW I tried to get into the chat-room last night and each time it would open to 83% and then Netscape would crash.. yet I could still get into my usual chat room... bizzare... anyone else have problems?

deevaa

dafsadf

OK, So I cheated...read from the bottom up...but, the title caught my eye...so I read...and LOVED "The Temple Door"by X

Angel

Happy Thursday Everyone!!!

"There is no pain like that of desire
Is there no difference between women and fire?
One burns the spirit,
The other the flesh.
Is sex worth
The price of certain death?"
~Type O Negative

To:
Deeva, Heart, Shady!!! thxs!! for the hug and the wishes!!

With a such a look in his eye's...
He said, "You know I,..." I interupted," me too!!!"

Well, I am ummm, feeling, kinda... well you know what they say 'bout making up...lol :) Eve's awl better! lol!!!


Mmmmm men!
Cant live with 'em
Cant live without 'em....

I AM teasing !!

Thxs to all for comp's on Tell me.

Thxs. Kev ~~smile~~

I can hardly believe the amount of poems.
The emotion and passion that is shared here...~whew~
I started reading to catch up, and couldn't stop!!
ALL OF YOU!! SIMPLY AMAZE ME!!!!
I am actully exuasted, from reading the power of all your works!!!

Jeanmaire, "For J" I heard your soul scream...chills ran through me...

Heather,"For everything there is a season" simply beautiful!! Excellent! Amazing...heart felt!! Loved it!

X.. "Temple"~whew~...damn!! Loved it!!! Grabbed me in puled me in!

Shady, "Lying in Autum" very nice :)

Eric, "Beach sunrise" I could feel the warmth of the sand.
"Dancing Gown" this image was soooo clear!

Jenna....Girl...~whew~ You forget, I'll remember! The title says it all! Excellent piece! Also, Love to lie! This has touched me very closly, I know this feeling. It's the of most painful things I've ever felt! Hugs!

Angel!!!! "Smile" oowwwww loved this!! :) :) :) :)

Romeo, Romeo...."Blush" sweet, touching!


~~~~Heartsong~~~~
What can I say...... Ouch, Please, A book of lessons,!! Enfolded..."wraped in my love enfolded in my soul!!"
Bravo!! Excellent!! I truly love all your works!!
I can relate to so much of what you say!! You are very
talented!

~~ Sweet Kev~~
Given Freely, When words are all there is..ALL OF THEM!
..Delete, electrons, wires..Kev..it is a machine! You are the force behind it! I believe in what Heart said, you have touched us all...:) I sit and read your words, feeling as if I am literally pulled into yout thoughts. Perhaps, seeing more then I should! (" Turning the page, dating it, Nov 5...") Still cant get over it!!!!!!!!!!! Kev, your heart is no longer on your sleeve. It lyes here...

Hey everyone...

Eve,
hey hun! *hugs* You're more than welcome, just keep submitting!! ;-) Thanks for your comment on Lying in Autumn...

:-)

To everyone else...Happy Thursday! Friday's not too far...



shady

This might sound weird, but the most romantic thing that ever happened to me was when I was hanging out with Josh in his motel room. I mean, I had just met the guy but the connection was unbelievable. We were just laying there, staring into each other's eyes, and he caressed my face. No guy had ever done that to me before. I will always cherish my memories of that night.
I don't think I'll ever hear from Josh again. I sent him the card and picture knowing he probably wouldn't respond. He's only nineteen, after all, and I probably overwhelmed him. But I felt like I had to let him know that our time together truly meant something to me. I had to take that chance.
Now, against everyone's advice and my own better judgement and intuition, I am once again involved with the guy from my past. Not much has changed. He still gets on my last nerve. But I have been very lonely these past few months and he has filled a void in my life. I don't think anything will come of it. I'm hoping we can just be casual friends. But is that possible with someone you've had sex with? I really don't think so.
I know all the right answers but that is so meaningless when my life is fallling down around me.

Oops...that should have been "falling", not "fallling".
Anyway, I didn't mean to go on like that. I just feel very comfortable opening up on this board.

Misti,

Hun, there is nothing wrong with following your heart. Ya just have to be a little more careful, try to save it from as many tears as possible. As most of us know, torn hearts repair themselves with thicker walls...innocence is our best gift from childhood, and saving as much as possible is hard, but necessary, I think anyways. (I'm babbling because I am dealing with a similar situation). I'm sorry you think things with Josh will never rekindle. Everything happens for a reason though hun, again, another belief of mine (watch out, I'm preaching so much, I may ask to hear an AMEN!!! hehe...) so just take it as it comes, but be honest with yourself. Which you seem to be. Save yourself the heartache if ya can. And if he starts treating you bad, there is gonna be a gang of big scary Blenderites all over his ass....LOL...;-)

I'm happy you feel comfy opening up to all of us. I wish I could feel that comfortable talking about myself...

Stay strong hun, you are a fighter.


shady

AMEN - tell it like it is sister!!

Misti -
All your new stuff speaks volumes... please take care of you. My heart was breaking as I read some of your new postings.
"Taste Test" tore at my heart strings... as did "Haiku 2" If you ever need to talk ... email me girl.
dee

Ooopies...sorry...(excited pinky finger :)


Misti...I loved Haiku #2...
Touched on a part of my life that I have just recently left behind. "trying to find center" I spent countless hours and sleepless nights, trying to figure what center was. It took me what seemed like forever...but ya wanna know something Misti...I have learned! It's more fun to 'sail' through life enjoying what is!! the beauty before me, and thrill of finding new, fresh and exciting things. And believe me, I am happier for it. I truely dont know if 'the center' exsist. If it does...then I am going to make damn sure...(while sailing merrily along, on my way there)I have a damn good time and enjoy all, instead of miss things that are not in my life...

just my 2 cents...take time to enjoy what you have, the rest will come if your desires are strong enough!! Hugs.. misti!

Eve,

You are the Greatest!

Eve:

Thanks for your comment about "For J." From you, that means a lot...your work is so good. Hope it wasn't too chilling an experience.

Happy pre-Friday, everyone.

Went into Blender chat yesterday. There was a psycho-sexual pervert in there (just waiting for me...haha). Lovely, just what I needed the first time I went in there. Oh well. Maybe one of these days, I will meet some of you guys in there....fellow "Blenderites" so I don't have to watch my back (end). LOL.

See ya.

deevaa-
"fighting words" - very well done. I liked the first version when I saw it, but think the second is much better. I liked seeing the creative process at work...how you changed it, focused it, in the rewrite.
"goodbye" - nice image and word placement, both neatly tucked in a haiku (3 of my favs)

X-
"The Temple Door" - Wow! Very erotic...

Kevin-
"for a friend" - I can really relate to this one personally, so I was very moved...

Misti-
All your new submissions today were quite powerful. You surely have a way with words, and I find that your directness strikes me to the core. I especially liked "Haiku #2", with the 'completion - circle - roll' trilogy.


This place really is addictive....

-Isolde

Took a quick look at the Blender Chat room. Got in just fine, but was alone so had to talk to myself (lol).

Then made the error of deciding to find out what the "channel" button did. It jammed up and wouldn't let me back out. It ended up crashing my whole system. So imho: some parts work well, some parts don't.

-Isolde

(not afraid to stand up because everyone seems to be absent from or late to class today)

Isolde, deevaa, Angel, Shady, Crickettt,

I don't want any of you (or anyone else sitting on the periphery of the room) to think that I do not read what you write to me on this board. As Isolde put it so well, this site is quite addictive. I do not want to find the cure. I thank you all for you kind and gracious words about what I write. I am filled with awe that you all actually read all of this and humbled that a few of my words can touch you. I read everyone's poetry, and as some of you know, words themselves are special to me. That the words you all share here come from the hearts and lives of *real* people (as opposed to the virtual) makes me truly feel like I am a part of something special. I remain ever mindful that there is real flesh and bone, heart and soul reading what I write. So thank you all again...

(sitting down again, and whispering)

Crickettt, band-aids don't work when words sometimes cannot stich our wounds closed again...

heart Song,
<sigh> what more can I say to you?

Eve,
(I passed you a note!) You are *incredibly* perceptive... I am deeply touched... Just one more thing (call me a traitor once again to my half of the species):

Men- you can't live with us, you can't leave us at the curb to be recycled... (LOL)

(sitting down again to take more notes)

-K

I never said I didn't like men...I LOVE men, they just confuse the hell out of me...hehe...

Speaking of which, I think I may have found one...I don't want one, but someone kinda popped up, out of no where, and what's weird is I've known him for about 3 years, and never ever considered him, in any way. Not even once, and then, well, yesterday, he shared 2 short stories of his with me...and never would I have ever guessed he had as much sensitivity in him as is apparent in his writing. Ugh, y'all...I don't know what I am doing, or why I am even considering having feelings for this guy, but, all of a sudden, I get all shaky when I know I'm going to see him. I can't even look him in the eye anymore. We went from silly friends, to a feeling of vulnerability, something I absolutely do NOT like, but the thing is, I'm kinda enjoying the awkwardness. I don't know...he is so not my type, that he is exactly my type.

Anyways, I'll keep ya all posted. Hopefully he'll call this weekend and join my friends and I for football sunday and dinner...we'll see...


shady

P.S. Happy Friday everyone (and payday for those of you like me;-)

To Shady-

Good luck with your "new" enamoureux. Yes, it can be scary to feel vulnerable, I totally understand where you are coming from. But if you never take the chance, you'll never know.

I happen to be a musician, and your post and my feelings about it reminded me some pithy lines from a couple songs I know:


"It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes a chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live"



"But your bound to lose
If you let the blues get you scared to feel,
And I feel like I'm just being born,
Like a shiny light, breaking in the morn..."


The first is from Bette Midler's "The Rose", the second from Joni Mitchell's "Willy" (yes, I know Bette didn't write it, she just made it popular).

Go for it Shady....and good luck.

-Isolde

(Chastizing self for having had the temerity to use the "P" word in that previous post)

Ooops! So sorry....

Perhaps it was a pithy Freudian slip?


-Isolde

Thank you Isolde...unfortunately it is a little more complicated, and I'm not sure if I am ready. I am not worried about my love being returned, I'm worried about it being returned too much, and then not being ready, not being able to handle that much love. I like him, I don't want to hurt him, but that's all I seem to do, because I try, and things go good, but then it just changes, and oh, I don't know how to explain. He is a great guy. Very sensitive. I think it could work if I was able to share all of me, but I am not sure if I'm capable. I know he kinda has feelings for me, by his actions, I know he kinda wants something to happen to. Ugh, I just don't know. I want him to call but I don't. I'm just all sorts of confused...well, why worry before he calls...right? Silly me...

Let me ask a question, is it possible to still hold some part of yourself in the dark, from the one you love, out of fear of hurting that person? Just past experiences? Things that, if he loves you, would probably kill him and make him feel helpless? Or does it mean, to love someone, means to surrender yourself wholly, and hope for the best to work out?

I'd love feedback on that one.

(I'm sorry, I'm such a child, whining about something so silly as a sudden crush)

Thanks everyone! :-)
shady

(whispering to his shady friend)

pssssst... Shady!

It is extremely frightening to know things about yourself and believe that someone for whom you have intense feelings for (whether they may be potential lover or a very close friend) might pull away from you if you share this knowledge with them. Recent experience has taught this lesson to me yet again; however, I have to say that you might be surprised by the results of baring your all to someone who genuinely cares about exploring the depths of YOU. But it is always risky... I have been very blessed, but I realize that it can go either way... So take it easily and slowly, my shady friend... You deserve to be loved deeply, not just intensely, and that will take time.

Listen to me, the very paragon of impatience, counseling you to go slowly! Ha!

(btw, I still think you're beautiful, so THERE! :-)...)

-K

*poutuing cause she can't play in the chat room*

Your poems were great,
i've been searching for a
interesting place to read
poetry and I found it.
Thanks.

-Mike-

Ashame such a promising site joins the realms of the thousands of other chat rooms on the net.

HeY gUyS iT'S Me,
Haven't been around for a while and i wanted to check up and see how my friends....KeViN,HeArTsOnG,ShAdY,IsOlDe,cRiCkEtT,and MiStI!
KeV and HeArTsOnG,
I'll probably be online around 7 or 8 'o clock my time! PaGe Me!!!
--------------------------ZoE

Hey all,

I have missed you these last couple days but we are finally ready to hit the road around three tommorow morning. I can't wait until the movers meet us in NC and I get my computer set back up. I will miss you all and take care.

Marla

Hello, people

I've been reading this page forever and this is the first
time I actually write something at the board. First of all,
a thousand tender thanks for all of your poems. It's
beautiful. Human nature at its best.

What is love? What about it that we're so passionate? That's
the question that I've pondered forever and couldn't come
up with a justified answer.

I think that love is the only way to grasp another human
being in the innermost core of his personality. No one can
become fully aware of the very essence of another human
being unless he/she loves her/him.

Well, any other ideas are welcomed on this matter. Gooday
people.

(clearing throat, standing up)

Herr Nietszche,

Welcome. I find that these poems are beautiful because they contain the disclosure of our innermost selves, expressions that are simply not possible within the confines of each of our daily lives (obviously speaking for myself, but hoping I am not) - except that with our lovers we share them in intimacy, and with our friends we celebrate these expressions here.

As a philosophical question (the one you have posed here), love is a celebration of one's own humanity. Part of why I think love exists along a continuum. You have exposed a part of this. The discovery of the very essence of another is what ignites the passion. What I believe keeps the flame burning is that we discover the very essence of *ourselves*, and to our surprise and great joy find ourselves lovable, indeed LOVED, by that other somewhere on the path of discovering and loving *them*. Truly loving another implies balance, for it is in this penultimate act of our humanity that we center our very existence in this world.

That's just my two pfennigs (or shillings, if you like), thats all...

-K

A friend becomes a lover when you stop becoming self-absorbed by your past and focus on NOW. Now is the only moment over which you can exert any control.

Nietszche,

Brandi says love,"is a gud thig!" I tend to agree!

Angel

Hey everyone!

Thank you, again, Kevin. Ugh, ur crazy. :-) (And quit that beautiful stuff, your making my cheeks red...hehe ;-)

Thank goodness it is the WEEKEND!!!



shady

Nietszche asked:

"What is love? What about it that we're so passionate?"

Not an easy question to answer, or even fully understand. To start with, what are we even referring to when we use the word "love"? The ancient Greeks, had many different words for love, one for each of the different types of love relationship. In English, we have only one word, and we apply it to the entire spectrum of love and relationships. In my opinion, the answer to the question "What is love?" will be different depending on which type of love you are referring to.

However, since this is a romance oriented forum, I will assume that the question refers to romantic love. To me, romantic love embodies that quest to find our soul mate, that person who will complete us utterly.

Like moths to a flame, we are always drawn back to this quest, even if our wings have been singed, because in the deepest reaches of our hearts I don't believe we ever stop searching for, hoping for, that one true love (except, of course, for those who are fortunate enough to actually find their true love). True love is when we know and are known completely by another, the real "us" underneath all the armor and masks and walls we build to protect ourselves, and when the result of that deep and total knowledge is acceptance, passion, intimacy and joy. Love is touching souls.


-Isolde

yawn~~~
I've come to peek in ....it's 12:40am!
Some quick things come to mind...

Mr. Passerby,
So curious! Why the comment with no name?
The chat connection was a gift from Kirk to those who wish
to connect. How can you look at this gift and say it's a shame!! tisk tisk.....perhaps you should keep walking!

Errrr sorry guy's! It just bothered me, got a bit under my skin!

Heart!!! Big thanks!! Think your wonderful too!! :)
ps...well Heart...I did it!! LOL!!!

~Kev~ I am here....just so crazyyyyy! busy! someone stop the
world I want to get off! :) I have been dying to write! 'E' and poems...you should see the collection of bits of papers, napkins, envelopes with notes on them :) I miss my private time! A funny story for you!! :) When I recieved your 'e' the other morning. I printed it and put it in my books and ran out the door to class.<grin>...during Eng. Lit. I saw the corner of the paper...:) couldn't resist!! LOL! There you were Kev...:) passing notes <wink> in class!Tee Hee! Will write in the morning..k...much to say...:) Just ~yawn~ :) sleepy sleepy!!

Oh....Deeva...dont know if you had a chance to get into the chat. I have a ? for you....Is your hard drive almost full?
If so, delete your cache, this should give you the bit o' space to connect to chat....k It happened to me before my upgrade...:)

Night to all!!! sweet dreams....

i just found this place--------i like it a lot

ZoE----
i feel like 'said it's never be this way' was written by me
it seems to be that smell that gets you
heres a good one though---his front steps were icy and i fell straight down them

keep 'poem-ing' yall
*love*

Damn. Submitted the same piece twice. That's what I get for being here at 2:00 a.m.

Sorry guys....

-Isolde

Hi, Blenderites. Thanks for the compliments on "The Blush." I hope my most recent poems don't disappoint; I'm still working on a few others. :-)

Take care,
Scott

Shady~"Lying in Autumn", I love to daydream too!

Jeannemarie!"Mirror Mirror", sometimes we just gotta wake-em
up!

Kevin~"For A Friend", your words always flow so freely, like over greased glass, how do you do it? ...lucky friend!

MVR~, "Sedated", especially loved,'you take me like I'm a piece of candy, a small bit of flavor to savor until you have time to eat', LOVED IT!

Thank You, Isolde for EXCERPTS from PLATO"S DIALOGUES...have read before and always loved and pondered the idea of another half...enjoyed reading again.

Did someone SCREAM for me? thanks

Angel

Isolde.........

"Taking the Cup"

<deep sigh> Simply Beautiful!!
The feeling, emotion......so pure.......simply beautiful!

Romeo, Romeo...

these words you speak
so sweet they pour from your heart
they pain they bear
one day will softened
but will never disappear.
Always a gentle ache,
will follow your thoughts...

Romeo, Romeo

Her love was once yours,
and for this, please do... smile softly
Rememeber her, cheerish her...
For what she was... with you.
She will never be this with another.

For each love we live
our soul grows on...

Not to fall from...
but to lean upon and learn to love on...

One day to be...
reborn innocently, in the eyes....of another love.

Scott,

It's a Shakespaerian kind of day for me...:)
Hope you didnt mind me ...reflecting off of you!

I read you poem..and was touched
The words just ........just......ya know what I mean :)

~~smile~~
Thxs........;)

(whispering to the new kid)

pssssst. sCrEaMiNgAnGeL! What a powerful poem - "too bad these are the memories." I undertstood instantly the truth you speak in this poem. 'Forgetfulness is cowardice.' That first line is an undisputable truth.

It is impossible to love someone unless you give yourself over to THEM. 'Plastic words' and 'wallpaper approval' are inspiring metaphor. That some people put forth a facsimile of themselves in relating to others, even in a supposedly intimate relationship, is sad to witness. It is an indignity to have someone do that TO you. This poem captures that wonderfully. You certainly deserve better...

-K

ScReAmInG AnGeL,
Funny,i thought the same thing when i read your poem...."too bad these are the memories". Think we'll be friends! so tell me about you.... here's me:
my real name is ZoE, i was named after david bowie's son
i live in New York City (Manhatten)
i'm 16
i have a 2 year old daughter, DeZiRe and i live with my boyfriend,Matt
YoUr TuRn....

AnGeL,KeViN,HeArTsOnG,MiStI,
MiSs Ya!TAlK To Me,hAvEn't hEaRd fRoM YoU....
------------------------ZoE

Eve-

Thank you for your kind words about "Taking the Cup". That one was so intensely personal that I almost didn't post it, but if it touched you, touched someone, then I guess I'm not sorry I chose to hit the submit button....

-Isolde

*sigh*
Isolde - "Taking the cup" - thankyou... *yet another sigh* wow.

Romeo/Scott - (forgive me if I've got the name wrong) "her lips" *bigger sigh* my mind is blank for words... but it moved me.

Oh dear.. I came back to comment on these two pieces they moved me so much and now I can't express how they both made me feel. The are both so personal, so touching and so... so... wow.
*deevaa leaves to go and get a cup of coffee*

OOPS~ I believe CLIMACTIC is the word I meant in MESMERIZE
overlook please!

I would also like to welcome Screaming Angel~ Powerful emotions!

Angel

Isolde~"Taking the Cup", what a shame if you had not of shared this one!

Angel

I'm here ZoE! Where have you been? I got you on my pager...can't never catch you on line though...i'm no1halo...knock sometime! Hello Desire, Santa's coming!

Angel

kevin & angel----
i consider 'powerful' a big happy compliment---thanks :)

ZoE---
my real name is angela (the angel part---screaming part is self explanatory)

i am 18

i just moved here (here=texas by the way) from my hometown 2000 miles away *tears*
i dont know anyone yet
all i really do is read and write and think
its amazing what idle hands and over-analyzing nostalgia does to what i write
*love*

ScReAmIn AnGeL,
hope you'll be posting from now on! i like your writing!
AnGeL,
I'll add you to my "friends" pager section! i'm excited to talk to you! hope Matt and i save up enough money to get a real christmas tree(we always have dumb fake ones that just aren't the same) and some good presents. Were putting all this money that we say we won't touch in this jar! were tryin' to be good!
-----------------------ZoE

sCrEAmIngAnGeL,
welcome, abit about me... I am 25, live in Wellington, the capital of New Zealand, and work as a Desktop and Web publisher for the NZ Ministry of Health. I am married and I have a 13mth old baby boy.
I paint and try to write poetry... (Oh and I spend far too much time here... watch out this place is addictive!!!)
I also thought your words where powerful... and look forward to seeing more postings from you soon..
dee

Comment time!

Eve-
I liked your Shakespearean reflections in your Blender Board post today. Nicely done.

Kevin U-
Many fine submissions recently. I especially liked "all things made".

Angel-
"Mesmerized" - very real, I can definitely relate.

deevaa-
"bitter hurt" - excellent! Your best haiku yet. Powerful and moving.

Kevin (new Kevin)-
"heart and hand" - I liked the progressing heart and hand metaphor carried throughout the poem.

Thanks for the nice compliments on my work, guys, I appreciate them.

-Isolde

Thanks to Dee & Eve for your compliments--especially to Eve for taking time out of her day to construct a poem to comfort and reassure me (that meant a lot to me). The fact that my poem touched you means that I might have succeeded in expressing myself as a fellow romantic. Thanks again. :-}

As a not-so-subtle aside, here's my take on intellectualizing "Love":

Poetry can be quite cathartic sometimes, and I won't be the first to admit that some of my most personal pieces come from reflections on the simple creature comforts that make life worth living.

As for the nature of Love, I don't really care about trying to probe or posture about the "essence" of Love. Love "is" and love always will "be". Love defies all physical boundaries and should rightly be defined as supernatural--one of the true unexplained mysteries of our universe.

Maybe I'm just espousing a different school of thought, but to put "love" under a microscope is to destroy its very nature--elusive, insatiable, enigmatic and (more often than not) painfully blissful.

Take care,
Scott

either you are or aren't one who lives by love. 'Romantic' is something you are with someone you truly love and who truly loves you. The rest are spectators in this life.

To Romeo / Scott:

Ooooh..... more public insults (although they are somewhat artfully veiled, I must admit). So much for the theory that the first go round was just a mistake or misunderstanding...

Usually, those who are just "espousing a different school of thought" don't feel the need to mock or criticize the ideas of those whose opinion differs from their own. The whole idea of "schools of thought" implies that there are various different opinions, each valid and worthy of respect.

You are a gifted writer, and I believe you know full well the exact impact your words will have on others. Surely it might have been possible to state your own opinion without insulting that of another?

-Isolde

(shady emerges from the shadows in the corner...:-)

I have a comment to make, about Romeo's comment. Although I think you are right Isolde, that the comment was meant in a negative way to all discussing love in here, I do have to agree with him. So much of love is the misunderstanding, the mystery. The feeling of love partly comes from being part of something so big, so immeasurable, so incomprehensible, that picking it apart completely might make all of its little secrets not so special.

A parallel to this, a stupid story, bare with me...when I was younger (a whopping 10 years ago), I used to be obsessed with the night sky. I mean, I had a telescope, I would just sit outside and look up. And the sky seemed so magical and out of reach and immense. I'm only 21, but the sky seems so much smaller now. And much of it has to do with reading books and asking questions...learning about it made it smaller. Still beautiful, but not in that same incredible, 'butterflies in the pit of your stomach' way. I miss that.

Corny story I know, but it came to mind.

I don't know if Romeo was maliciously attacking us, as Isolde scolded him for. It is natural to want to know everything about something that makes you feel so damn good, but, as he said, picking it apart leaves love as a little less....


(receding into the shadows again...;-)

(poking head out for one last moment)

I do not mean that to learn about something ruins it, I mean that if you study something, and learn that there is too much to learn, and it is impossible to ever understand and envelope its grandeur, then let it be, and just enjoy it.

If you are lucky enough to have it, enjoy it.

(buh-bye)

Ahhhhh!...then I was right to belive that...IGNORANCE is BLISS!!! Thanks, Shady, for affirming my belief...

Angel

*deevaa puts her hands over her ears* la la la la lalalalala
I can't hear you.. I can't hear you...

why oh why must my two favorite poets fight??? ... stop yelling at each other... (please) I don't understand, and I don't want to.

Isolde, I just popped in to check out your new pieces, I thought your loves words where beauiful... and your mussings on what makes a poet.. oh how true your words are.

Play nice now.
dee

*wonders if she should not have said what she did, goes and makes a coffee and worries that she might have upset her friends*

Who's fighting? Heehee...

Dee, girl, puh-lease...who could get mad at you? :-)

Angel, thanks...LOL...Ignorance is Bliss, I have not heard a statement quite so true...and it applies to so much.

Isolde...thanks for the e-mail...:-)

Homey time,

shady

*yelling to shady as she walks up the street*
Shady!
I added the words to my page.. check it out.... and hey! What is happening with that guy?? Huh? *blushes as the whole street stares at her... mutters*
I'll just go inside now shall I?
*shuffles back in the door*

(trying to hide because he was late to class)

pssst...

Shady-

I appreciated your comment, but also your clarification. I have concentrated much of my adult life in the quest to discover all that I can about love. All I can say is that every day brings about new awareness and knowledge. Shouldn't love be that way? How else would it grow, and have knowledge of its own growth? Analyzing love itself, while seeming to be an oxymoron - to study passion dispassionately - is another way in which we discover our true selves. For love, true love, is an act of the mind as well as the soul, heart, and body. (BTW, I will pass you a note later!!)

deevaa-
Your poem "bitter hurt" touched me deeply. My best friend experiences that hurt every year... So when I read this poem, I felt her pain yet again.

ZoE-
WOW! "heart hurts"... This poem took my breath away. You know truths that some people never dream of... "we pretend so much that the truth feels like faith"... So true of so many unhappy people I have known in this life.

"infinite is lies unveiled to us we see ourselves"...
This line is so deep that I could spend hour exploring it. It is as if you have weaved a symbol in my mind's eye of never ending infinity with that one line...

Isolde-
"Poet?" is simply beautiful. I have always felt that my poetry comes as songs within my heart. (As an aside: heart Song, you know your very nickname embodies this, don't you?)
The crooning of my heart is a very intimate thing, and I am still shy in front of a room full of people, even if some of you are good friends. So I will keep sharing... A little at a time.

Angel-
"*MESMERIZED*" was to me like a reflection of myself from an angle I hadn't quite seen in that way before. That was kind of scary!

"What a SHOCK to find such a brilliant gem
when I was not even aware I was seeking one"

I have most definitely been there... At least with my heart...

-K

Kev~...ooH! SCARED myself!

I need an EMILY fix!!!!!!

Angel

Kevin -
about "bitter hurt" everyone tells me I should let it go... and I wish I could.. I thought by writing down how I feel that it might make it easier to be at peace about it.. and it does help.
This is the first year that he forgot... how could he? his own birthday is 2 days after. If it happens next year.. *fire burns in her eyes*

Hey!!!!!

I hate to say this but, I couldn't access the web all weekend, and well, it was a relief! Ahhhh finally a break! I discovered something called Television! it was great, it had a screen like a computer and the pictures moved and there was sound! Something called Urban Cowboy! Wow! But, I am back! Gee, did anyone even miss me?! :-(
LOL

Kev,

I agree with you...about the self-exploration part. I think learning how you yourself love teaches yourself alot about you. But I do not think we are talking about self-exploration here, I think they were talking about taking love itself, the 'idea' of it and picking it apart to understand what it is to everyone, to understand how to receive it from anyone, or know if it is being offered. Everyone loves different. God, knows I do not love in the 'traditional' way, but it does not mean my love is any less...... if anything after my experiences, it is more because I have endured so much and appreciate the love from others I do have, and give. Whew, that was a mouthful.

I don't know. I hope that clarifies a bit more. I have a whole lifetime though, I guess, to learn what there is.

shady

Thanks everyone for your comments.
I have been writing for almost 30 years. It centers me and helps me know my heart and soul. The only parts which should be the leader in this life.
Oh, the comments this month on what love is.
Love should be given away, without expecting anything back.
It is in the act of giving love that the best feelings come.
Giving love, expands our ablity to "feel" it. Always.

"To love is to place our happiness in the happiness of another" Gottfried Wilhelm Van Lubreitz

" Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away" Elbert Hubbard

"It is not our toughness that keeps us warm at night, but our tenderness which makes others want to keep us warm" Harold Lyon

Touche, Harry!

KeViN,
What would i do without you? he he you have a great ability to build my "poetry esteem"!you definately can always made me smile!
--------------------------ZoE

Had a couple of reports of things being down, so this is a test.

Wow. Didn't fully realize that my blunt opinion about the nature of Love would insult anyone. I apologize for the rift, however relevant it may be.

Just expressing my own opinion. Thanks for your support, Blenderites.

Scott
:-}

(whispering to whoever will listen)

Oh Master Keeper of the Blender,
Thanks for giving us back our fix... You are truly a prince among men, Kirk.

ZoE,
keep writing, you will find that it helps you find out more about yourself... And what there is to find in you will be so wonderful (so don't forget to share!).

Heather,
I have 'only' been writing semi-seriously for about twenty-five years (on and off), and have found the same things as you. I am glad that I returned i the past year or so to more creative expression (the rest of my writing is rather dry, I'm afraid).

About your comments and quotes... Nothing more to what you said need be added except that I agree with every word. Thank you for sharing that with all of us.

Shady,
Yes, my friend. As far as the intellectual exercise goes, it has little to do with how love applies to our own relationships, so in that, I agree with what you have said. Thanks for the further clarification. But the truest form of self exploration is in what we see of ourselves reflected in those who love us.

heart Song,
You know darn well that *I* missed you! Welcome back! Hope you are rested enough to share some more of your beautiful songs with us...

now back to the salt mines...

-K

Hey everyone...

heart Song, Congrats on discovering TV...hehe...and Urban Cowboy, oh I love that movie!! Sooo cheesy...but that one there are actually two songs in that movie I LOVE. "Love, look what you've done to me." and that other country-ish one that they dance to...ugh...

Heehee..."Fine, fergit it..." sorry, I've seen it like 20 times...


Kevin, I have yet to understand what you mean, as far as self-exploration through others eyes, goes. But I think that is because I've yet to trust someone so much, that if they say I am funny or beautiful, that I actually believe them, and that they are not saying it for alterior reasons. Only time will tell hun, but thank you, I'll be looking out for it...hehe...;-)

Aside from how pickig it apart might take away from love, it can just be so damn complicated, and can take every ounce of energy you have. :-) I am BEAT!

(sitting in Kev's former chair) I'm sitting in the back, before I get detention...hehe...


shady

Hey everyone, I finally got to the new submissions! (just don't tell my boss!) hehe...

Dee - "fighting words" I love it, it was just beautiful, very real and truthful.
Heehee…"words" was great.

Kevin - "for a friend" I love the last line. Very sweet "Steal Me" - again, very nice, sweet.

Misti - "taste test" - love the last point made at the end of this work.
"sedated" - beautifully heart wrenching. Misti, you and you words…harsh and perfect and smooth, all at once.

MEg - "Bite My Tongue" Great! I read your work and think I’m reading my own sometimes. We have such similar styles, but you choose great words and subjects.

Maureen - "dead in the water" - I really liked this. Very good job.

Scott - "Breathing without Oxygen" - Ugh, I really liked this one, loved the last line.
"Back to Sleep" - Loved that one too, you make me want to be in love, not a typical thing for me.

Screaming Angel - "too bad these are memories" - I really liked it. I have to admit, I don’t usualy read all of the longer ones, but this one kept me hooked ‘til the end. "Obviously confused" this one was really good too.

T.K. - I already told ya what I thought of "The Mail is in the Kitty", thought I’d tell everyone, I thought is was really cute, very amusing.

Tristan - "Beacon" simple is always nice. (I love your name by the way, ever since Legends of the Fall…hehe…mmmm…Brad Pitt!)

Isolde - "Poet?" Aw, I love this one! And "The Doves"…ooh, very nice…I’m blushing…hehe.

Great job everyone, as always!!


shady

Thanks Kirk...and I bet I know who the other half of 'both' is...

Oh, could you put Chris's poem on the sub. page...I really liked it...missed it somehow...I wouldn't want it to be forgotten...thanks again

Angel

OH! SHADY! You DID it AGAIN! Captured me with the first few words of "The Moon Smiles Down", and kept me spell-bound...simply adored it!!! The 2nd stanza was my favorite

Angel

Just have a sec....

Wanted to say thanks for the kind words about my recent submissions, especially to deevaa, Kevin and Shady. And I will pass on the compliments to my beloved on his work. He actually came to the Blender to look for himself last night, but I believe he only read the New Submissions page.

About "The Doves" - thanks Shady. That one was inspired by something he said, but I reworked it enough that I felt I should submit it under my name. I'm glad someone "got" it. I thought the reference might be too obtuse...

heartSong - Yes. Welcome back.

Later-
Isolde

Shady, Shady, Shady...
all your new stuff... I am liking it girl.. I liked "Sunday mornings" .. damn, I think I can remember it being like that... *deevaa frowns... thinking hard*
and "The Morning After" MMmmmm - Mmmmmnnn.... *winks* you did good girl!!

dee

Oops! In my poem entitled "Set the Table" It is supposed to be 'I have nothing to lose' not 'I have nothing to loose.'


--Jenna

Mark U
I felt like I should've written The Day After.
I hope you're not still waiting by the phone like I am.
I screwed up and he'll never ever forgive me, not in a million years.

I really do read "everyone's" work ... and am always awed by the personal pieces of yourselves that I find there.
Far to many to mention by name ... but but but .. Shadygirl, for some reason, Sunday Morning REALLY made me smile inside!

Maybe cuz I'm to be married in 4 short days ... ya think!

: )

heart song...
"Rock me in time to the beat of your heart"
OMG!! babe that is.. beautiful, graceful, eloquent and moving... "the thing you don't know is... from the very start, That I say your name with each beat of my heart." Wow! I love it.

*deevaa skips about showering everyone with daisy's and tulips* Summer has just hit here.. the weather is fantastic, it is 3.30pm now and the temp. is 26º Cent. (I don't know what that is in your numbers) but it is the most beautiful day in a long time... I wanna skip in fields of flowers and play in the sea... *happy smile*

dee

Angel, thanks so much for your comment on The Moon Smiles Down. :-)

Dee, aw girl, thanks for what you said...it'll be like that with Ade again soon hun, patience my dear, patience. :-)

Crickett, thanks for your comment...WOW!! I really cannot believe you all liked those peoms that much. I've been experimenting so much that my style changes daily, I never know what to expect, thanks for all your support!

Love you guys!!


shady :-)

Crickett~ I'm so exited for you!!! Have a truly wonderful honeymoon~ then~ Ha Ha ~ write us all about it~:-)

Angel

Kevin...my dear wonderful Kev. "Growing Pains",let me just pretend that ,That one, was written for me!

Angel

Heartsong~ I see you put the ole telly aside! I loved your latest submissions...especially "Rock Me in Time to the Beat of Your Heart" and "I Need You"...knowing you makes these poems even more real to me...glad you turned off the tv!
Oh! I did'nt get the last atachment you sent...couldn't open it?

Angel

Brandi~ You did it again, baby~ Pure and Simple

Mommy

Hey everyone, just trying to keep up!

Jenna - I really liked "Set The Table". Can definitely relate to that one!

heart Song - "You and Him" - very touching poem. M…"I Need You" even better, if that’s possible!

Andrea - "abuse me" - very good, I liked this one a lot.

Kevin - "Growing Pains" - This one is really nice. ("As long as we got eachother, we got the world spinning right in our hands…baby you and me…we gotta be…the luckiest dreamers…" blah blah blah..sorry, the title reminded me of the theme song…hehe…:-)

And to our dear sweet l’il Brandi…way to go girl! :-) I think we have another Emily Dickinson on our hands here!



shady :-)

(whispering again)

Angel,
yes, the heart as a kite. Good metaphor. Sometimes I feel as though mine is crashing into the ground at a hundred miles an hour. But I always want to get ip up and flying again...

Shady...
wow. YOU deserve to be the 'She,' you know... And 'Morning After'... the imagery is incredible... Thanks for sharing that private and intimate expression.

Jenna
In regard to 'Set the Table'... You are the main course and should be savored long... Don't settle for those who only want a taste... They don't want the flavor of your heart to burn into their palette...

Crystal
You are not 'Alone.' You are among friends here.
And looking back at your posting above - remember that true love always forgives... Or else it was never true...

heart Song
I always wondered what was going on in the head and heart of my beloved in moments like the one you described in 'Rock Me in Time to the Beat of Your Heart.' Now I think I know. Beautiful song from your heart, my dear friend... The construction of this poem (the circularity of it) is very well done... two hearts beating in the same rhythm...

And 'I Need You' is not silly... It struck me as being quite poignant, knowing you as I do...

Andrea,
Yes! 'hunger'... I find that sometimes a good kiss can be the most erotic thing in the world... thanks for the description of that truth...

-K

Good morning everyone! Hey, I've got a lot of catching up to do! I'll be reading the new submissions all day! Yeah!

Brandi,

I was you at one time! Sweetest little poem from the sweetest little heart on the blender! Angel, you must be so proud! You and I are some lucky moms huh!

deevaa,

thank you so much for such kind words, can I dance with you?

Shady,

A circle of friends! I'm glad we are intwined!

Kev,

From my heart to yours. Thank you, because you have been there for me in my greatest hour of need, and the strength you infuse into me derives from me songs of inspiration!

Shady:

YES, it is entirely possible to "hold a part of yourself from the one you love." Each of us has a past, that is part of who we are. Sharing your past with someone else is your choice. It should have no bearing on any relationship that is happening in the here and now. It simply isn't relevant. Should you choose to share it...that's your choice, but should not be a requirement. What's more important is who you are now...not who you were yesterday or the day before. Because....you are no longer that person. Hope this helps.

Jeanmarie.

Hey Blenderites. Happy Wednesday to everyone!!!

I have a question for the Board... How does everyone feel about the quote: "Pain is the breaking of the shell that encases your understanding." I believe it is from Kahil Gilbran's "The Prophet" (great read), but can't remember as I read so many books last year to get me through a rough part in my life.

I was speaking to someone recently who only liked to think about "happy thoughts" and ignored or buried the rest. I totally disagreed with this person. I think that unless we can feel the pain and deal with it, that true understanding can never come. The pain can be cathartic if we deal with it properly and thoroughly.

Just thought I'd ask. Take care all, and thanks for being here.

Kevin:

I hope you are happy today. Your words touch me so deeply. I have always had a soft spot in my already "mushy" heart for any man who can write as beautifully as you do. You are truly a wonderful man (I can tell even from not knowing you) and only deserve the best that life has to offer. Any woman would be lucky to have you in her life. So, be choosy, because she is out there...

Take care.

Hey you guys...is the weather as crappy everywhere as it is in NY?

Oh Kev, EEEK! You make me feel so damn guilty. I've been so crabby to you these past two days...you are an incredibly amazing and patient person. Thank you so much, for your comments, for everything. I say this, on the board, not e-mail, because I want everyone to know how great you are. (oh, puh-lease...like they don't know already...;-)

heart, intwined...anytime girl...:-)

Aaaaah jeanmarie...thank you that is exactly what I wanted to hear. I'm not entirely sure I agree, (I'm always contradicting myself) but, I hope you are right. I'd like to think some part of me can be left behind, why bring the past to the future, right? Especially if it can only cause your 'other' pain as well. Thank you for answering! :-) As for your question, I agree with you. Unfortunately. I mean, of course it is easier to ignore the pain and focus on the good stuff. Some may consider that to be optimism, but I would think optimism means going head first into the bad and telling yourself you can make it good. I sometimes think to myself "Why do I let this bother me...it will not matter to anyone 100 years from now." But the plain truth is that is just laziness. Who cares about 100 years from now. I still have another 60 years or so in me, why spend that lying to myself just to save a few tears. Of course I make it sound so much easier than it really is. But through self-exploration, as we've been discussing in here, comes a greater understanding, not only of yourself, but then of those around you. Once you undertsand yourself, I would think happiness comes easier, and pain subsides with less effort. Leaving you time to help others do the same. Hmmm...this is a long answer to a short question. I think you need to focus on your hurts, not ignore them. :-)


And that concludes shady's two cents...;-)

Hey, all. Happy Wednesday. I can't stay long, I'm on my way to seek counseling at the student center here on campus. I figure with on-campus counseling, spiritual counseling at church, and writing tons of poems, I should be sqared away before too long. In this century, perhaps.
Thanks for the all the comments and compliments on my newest submissions. As always, I truly appreciate the feedback and support so many of you have given.
Stream of Consciousness Stuff:
"Urban Cowboy" is one of my all-time favorites. I have a small collection of videotapes- "Urban Cowboy", "Prelude to a Kiss", "When a Man Loves a Woman", "Flash Gordon" (my fave), "Waiting to Exhale", "Purple Rain", "Son-in-Law", and "Saturday Night Fever". Oh, and "Shag".
I think you should keep some things to yourself when in love. There's no way you can share every aspect of your being with another person. That's what God is for. But that's just my personal belief.
"The Guy From My Not-So-Distant Past" called me last night and told me he has bought me a diamond sapphire ring. I'll believe it when I see it. This guy has the same birthday as Clinton, consequently (Aug. 19), and he has a tendency to lie and exaggerate. He also has a somewhat perverted sexual history. Staggering, huh? I've always been fascinated by astrology because I have found so much truth in it. My birthday is February 17 (1973...6:29 p.m.) which makes me an Aquarius-Libra on the cusp of Pisces with a Virgo moon and Virgo ascendant and Mars in Capricorn, Venus in Aquarius, Mercury in Pisces, Saturn in Gemini, etc. etc.
If any of ya'll have any synastry (compatibility) questions, e-mail me. I've been studying this questionable science since I was in elementary school.
****ZoE,
Do you really think Courtney Love has sold out? "Celebrity Skin" is the only single I've heard from her new album. I want a guitar so bad.

:) Misti

Thanks to thoes of you who commented on my poems.
I haven't read the new sub. yet but i will and get back you you guys later.

Kevin,
Thanks for the kind words - you always know how to make someone feel better!

Brandi,
I wish i was as talented as you when i was your age. Keep it up girl!

--Jenna

Jeanmarie,

"Do you not see how necessary a world of pains and troubles is to school an intelligence and make it a soul?"
~ John Keats, English poet.

Misti, LOL...we share the same taste in movies, I have almost all of them, except Flash Gordon...hehe...I was born on December 1st, 1976, what can ya tell me about me? Heehee... :-) That is so great, I was into astrology, but never could really get too into it, to learn all of the aspects. But my Tarot on the other hand...although I haven't touched them in months, for a while I used them 1-2 times a day. Why did the 'not so distant' guy buy you a ring? My ex did the same thing. Told me "Oh, I bought a ring, put the down payment on it..." blah blah blah, I told him a thousand times it wasn't necessary, but then, all of a sudden it just wasn't brought up anymore, and that was like...'hey, I didn't care at first, but, if you are promising something to someone keep the promise...' sounds materialistic, but it was the fact that he was promising something and didn;t go through with it that annoyed me...I wear little jewelry anyways...I'd make a very cheap wife...hehe...

As for Courtney Love selling out...what? I was never real big on Hole before, but after everything that girl has been through, I would have to say it would basically be IMPOSSIBLE for her style and view and message NOT to change. I think she looks great and is doing great. And, I happen to love Celebrity Skin, the album. It's fun, because it isn't the typical thing you'd expect.

HEY! Has anyone heard that song...I don't know the title, or who sings it (some help I am) but part of the Chorus goes "Wanna throw my tender heart in a blender, watch it spin around into a beautiful oblivion, rendez-vous, then I'm through with you." or something like that? It totally reminds me of this site, and of that inside joke about the Heart Blender Smoothie...hehe...



shady

Shadygirl,
That's cool that we have the same taste in movies! What is your absolute favorite? I say "Flash Gordon" but I know it's a hard-core "B" movie. I think "Gone With the Wind" is a masterpiece. I also like "The Wizard of Oz" and "American Grafitti". I have no idea how to spell "grafitti", by the way.
I saw "Waterboy" with my ex from 2 years back last Saturday. I laughed aloud several times but I don't think it's Adam Sandler's best effort. He is hilarious, though. Definitely one of "SNL"'s best.
I always say that the perfect man for me is dead and I never even met him. His name was Andy Kaufman and I think he was a genius. I was excited to hear that they're making a bio flick about him until I learned that what's his face (from "The Mask" and "Dumb and Dumber") (Jim Carey???) is going to play Andy. I loathe that guy.
FYI, you are a Sagitarius-Aries (like my daughter, who will turn 2 on December 8). You were born in the same year as my sister, the Year of the Dragon. I would guess that you are a raging extrovert, full of confidence with an exceptional sense of humor. I would have to look at a book to do your chart, but I know offhand that your polar opposite is Gemini (strong sexual attraction, MUCH chemistry) and for a marriage partner you should consider a Libra, Leo, Aries, or Aquarius. There are more Sagitarians in my family than any other sign. Libra is a close second. Now I'm thinking that Saggitarius should have 2 g's instead of 1. MY SPELLING IS SHOT!!!!!!! Oh, well.
I have nothing bad to say about Courtney Love. I have nothing but respect for that woman. She rocks. She's a Cancer and Kurt was a Pisces. Their signs were in trine, as were John (Libra) and Yoko's. Yoko is Aquarius-Libra, like me.
That song you mentioned is ALWAYS on the radio but I forget the name of it. I think maybe Third Eye Blind sings it. My new favorite song is "Slide" by the Goo Goo Dolls.

:) Misti

Crickett, four more days huh?! Congratulations!!!!!

Hey there Zoe!

Marla, I miss you!

Isolde,

I tried to pick out just one peice of yours to comment on, but I just couldn't do it! They are all still milling around inside of my heart!

Heart Song - damn! Of course I'll dance with you... best offer I have had all day!

Jeanmarie - "A Day in your Shoes" ah…very good. Very clever.

Misti - Oh my...the year of the dragon eh? (Roar!...wait, do dragons roar? oh well...) My fave movie? Oh geez, I love the movies. I thinkit can be so great to experience someone else's emotions for a little while, escape your own world for two hours. Lets see, my taste changes so often, so I'm sure if you asked me the same question next week, my answer would be different, but here goes nothing: as far as thinking is a great movie because it was well made, I would have to say Boogie Nights. Anyone reading this who is not too open-minded, be wary, it is about the porn industry. But, I think the way it was done was excellent. It gave an almost documentary feeling through out the whole thing. An emotional roller coaster, and that one scene with Mark Wahlberg (a total hottie) when he and his mom are in the fight, it was so good. He really proved himself.

My fave sappy movie, hmmm...there are so many!!! In addition to those you mentioned, I love Bridges of Madison County (the one movie I can say was honestly way better than the book). My throat was sore for an hour after I saw it the first time, from crying. I loved the movie Kama Sutra, it was an Indian love story, kind of Romeo and Juliet-ish. Any Romeo and Juliet movie, love the story, love the movies. I loved the 1996 remake with Leo and Claire Danes.

I'm horrible with horrors...so don't ask...;-)

I loved Breakfast Club and all those Brat pack movies of the 80's. Anything funny, like Tommy Boy. Geez I didn't breath for minutes at a time during that movie.

Hehe...as for my personality...I was an extreme extrovert when I was younger, but I had some hard times, and I think that is what made me shy. But, as I regain my confidence I have noticed I do love the spotlight. So much so, that I am considering singing for my father's band once in a while on weekends...eeekk!!! And you are so right about Geminis!! Although I do tend to be attracted to alot of Sags as well, friendship and romantically.
Not bad girl!! Not bad at all!

Anyways, I better get going, having company tonight and my kitchen looks like I just cooked a 7 course meal...and then threw it on the floor...(well, not THAT bad.)

See y'all in the morning!

shady

Shady:

That song you were talking about it is called "Inside out" by Eve 6.
I know how things like that bug me so it hhought i'd let you know.

--Jenna

HeY hEaRtSoNg!
mIsTi,
So far all i've heard is celebrity skin but i really don't like pop music and she relates her new album as a pop sort so i haven't been rushing out to buy it. live through it and pretty on the inside were some heavy albums but they may not have been if she wasn't using so many drugs. i'm glad that she's clean especially for her daughter,francis bean but i think it won't fuel much deep deep music. what do you think?

Sorry i haven't been on a lot lately but Dez is certainly doing a good job of keeping me busy. Hope i talk to KeViN,HeArTsOnG Or aNgEl on the pager soon!
----------------------------ZoE

I think Kirk's coment about Mobius was right on the money. *Dada-esque* indeed.

(whispering for no reason because the room is empty...)

I have been busy all day catching up on my homework. (Okay, I'm lying, I had detention! Too much work!!!)

Jeanmarie...
I have been waiting all the live long day to speak to what you wrote this morning. I read Gibran's "The Prophet" at a young age and placed the words in it close to the core of who I was, and surprisingly, who I still think I am... What you mention about his words is worth looking at closely (at least to me)... My own writing is premised on one of the things he writes about 'Self-Knowledge':

*Say not, "I have found the truth," but rather, "I have found a truth."*

One human being can never possibly handle the whole truth. What's more, the whole truth is unknowable to human beings... We can only catch glimpses of it. If we can expose these little kernals of truth, then we have meaningfully participated in the lives of others... That is what Gibran did in his most famous work...

What struck me very hard to see again in black in white were these words he wrote about Love:

*Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
...And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.*

AND furthermore, Jeanmarie,
Thanks for the expressions of mush... (Today I was too busy to even think about whether I was happy or not, but now that I have a moment, yes, I am!) What you have been reading a lot of lately have been my personal discoveries of the knowledge of too much tenderness. Yes, my own understanding of love has wounded me but the flowing of blood from these wounds has produced some incredible things... I have never been too choosy in the giving of myself to my friends or the *love of my life* (maybe overeager to please), and I have never before thought that I always deserved the best of what life has had to offer (but now I have a lot of friends who keep trying to disabuse me of such a notion)...

Thank you for your kindness.

Shady,
my friend... I don't think you have been crabby in the slightest. (Um, not everyone knows me, hon, so don't make me blush in public!!!) You have nothing at all to feel guilty about.

Yes, you hit on a truth when you said "you need to focus on your hurts, not ignore them."

Even if it is not always cathartic, it can make for some really great poetry, huh?

Jenna
not just kind words, my dear... kernals of truth. words will pass, it is what they leave behind that matters most...

Crickettt
Yes! I wish you success in love! And as much happiness as you can handle...

ZoE
been working late... sorry!

-K

Tony oh
Tony oh
Wherefore art thou
Tony oh

G'mornin' everyone...it's Thursday!

Jenna, thank you for the name of that song! That stuff does annoy the heck out of me!! I'm happy everyone has heard it!

Kevin, I HAVE been WAY crabby. It's ok, you can say it. Heehee...(I won't bite your head off anymore...;-) I LIVE to make you blush in public...hehe...anyways, wait until you hear the latest chapter! John is back, in full force, last night was interesting, to say the least.

Dee, heart, ZoE, Marla, Angel, crickett, Romeo, and everyone else I just forgot, hello!


shady

Goodmorning Everyone! It's a beautiful Day!

...heartsong, you always seem to make it brighter :-)

Angel

Isolde~ simply LOVED "Shooting Star", You say so much...seemingly effortlessly...amazing!

Angel

Well it is Black Friday here... *checks under her desk for black cats*

Shady - well today is the day... his last exam starts soon, it is 2pm and it is at 2.30pm... then I get my husband back! (I hope) He will have a Masters degree in Economics and Commerical Law... and I hope that is the only thing that has changed!

Misti - how about checking our our signs... I am a Libra - born October 18th 1973 at about 5pm in New Zealand (if the place makes a difference) and Ade is also Libra (an indecisive couple...) - his birthdate is October 20th 1968 born in Nigeria (I don't know what time)
also what can we expect from TK (or son) born Sept 21 1997, in Wellington, it was a Sunday and he was born about 1pm.

*deevaa smiles and goes back to her work*

oy, deevaa!

21 September was a good day to be born! I was born myself on that day in 1961... (almost the stone age, huh?)

-K

Mobius, I have a challenge for you. You do indeed have a very creative mind, and a knack with words, but - do you dare to look inside and write something from your heart? Something serious? I think that you have much to share.

WELCOME~WELCOME~WELCOME, Wade Erickson...Your writings are overflowing with genuine sensitivity...I adored,"Riverside Romance" and "Dear Beautiful Woman", but all of your work is great! "Plea For their Return", almost made me cry...We often overlook male sensitivity,but it is there...I love the way you let it show!

Angel

Dee,

Wish your hubby luck from the Blender...hehe...!!

Don't worry hun, things work out for the best, they will be fine. How can anything be bad on a Friday?

*HUGS* and *KISSES*

shady :-)

Thank the Good Lord above that it's Friday!!

Hello there all!

Have a great weekend!!!!

Has anyone heard the new song by Fionna Apple which is actually a cover of a Beatles song which is called
Across the Universe? Well the song's lyrics have a lot of deep meaning and like you poets should check it out.

Where is everyone?

oh well, Hi! Happy Saturday!!!!

HEY!!!!!!! I am alive can you all believe it? We are finally here and have our stuff and are sort of unpacked. I just didn't want you all to think I had forgotten about you because I haven't. I can't wait to read the new submissions for this month, I am so behind. It sounds like we have a lot of great new writers and of course the the wonderful ones that were already here as well. By the way, I miss all of you :-( Well catch up to you later, I only have a second.

Marla

BoO,
Hey everyone so we survived FrIdAy the 13th!!!Have been submitting but not blender boardin'!Figured I'd take a spare minute out while Matt and Dez are out to see what's goin'on here....i missed you guys *i'm such a goon*!um....well KeViN aNd ScReAmInG AnGeL i loved your latest submissions(couldn't have said it better myself)!ShAdY aNd mIsTi,WHERE ARE YOUR NEW SUBMISSIONS???MARLA TOO????um...well *hugs* to everyone!!!

heart Song
I liked reading your book! Keep sending your thoughts and feelings. I feel as if I know you!

SYMPATHI---
i sympathize more than i can say (re:ALONE)
sad to say i've become accustomed to hopelessness in this area
please don't do the same

kevin---
on helpless: sometimes the ones that crush aren't vicious they are just unspeakably frightened and uncertain. it is easier at times to crush than wait to be crushed...but i am not saying it is right by any means
"many a chance has been thwarted by fear"

*love*

(Hey, the clock in my world says it's Sunday so I don't
have to whisper...)

sCrEaMiNgAnGeL
There was a time in my life that I felt the pain of the loneliness that I never thought I would escape. It is during these fall months t