By Rich De Long  the_minotaur@hotmail.com
Date: 13 March 1999

apology

My Love,
I'm not very good at this
But then, what guy is
Really, truly good at this?
Romance,
Love,
And saying I'm sorry

My anger,
My control,
Caused a rift between us
One that I never meant
To happen.
I'm sorry

I'm sorry about the distance,
That I let it come between us
I'm sorry that
I didn't make an effort
Until it was too late.

I'm sorry
That I never gave you
What you deserved.
Treated you
Without respect.
Denied you your
Dreams, desires, and hopes.

I apologize
For everything
And anything
I ever did
That was wrong
To you.

You never know
What you have,
Until it is gone
Man I was stupid.
I lost the most important
Thing in my life-You.

I admit,
I never showed you
Just how special
You were
And are to me.
How much I
Cared about you.





How can I ever
Make up for
All the pain and suffering
I have caused you?
I've put you through
Everything I promised
I wouldn't do.

Is there anything,
Anything at all
That I could do 
To make it up to you?
To show you
That I want things
To be different?

Shonda,
My Love,
Is there even the slightest chance
Anything at all
That I can use
To build upon
To restore us?

Can you find it
In your heart
To give us another chance
Just one more
That's all

I know I've asked that before
And never held Up to 
My end of the deal
It wasn't fair
To you

I don't want
To lose you
I want to spend
The rest of my life
With you,
With our daughter.

Can we give it 
One more try?
I'll be anything 
You want me to be.
Sensitive, caring, thoughtful,
Respectful, loving, supportive.
Just mention it
And I promise
It will be.



I love you
With all my heart and soul
Will you allow me
To show it to you?
To prove it to you?
Please give me the chance
I won't disappoint you again.

I'm sorry
For everything
For anything
That was less
Than you deserved