By Elaina
Date: 29 January 2001

I've Got You Figured Out

You play the maybe game.
Maybe this or maybe that,
so know one can see what
you really think. Probably
because we think along the
same lines, if someone knows
you they can hurt you and
use it against you.  You
also don't like being one
sided, so that's why you
always choose maybe, but
I'm sure you can lean more
towards one side than the
other. You ask questions
to which you already know
the answers, because curiosity
gets the best of us. However
frustrated you seem to get over
my unwillingness to communicate
you play the same game.
"I don't know, I don't
want to think about that
right now, I don't really
have an opinion." You think
that I can't figure it out,
I'm the same way, and you
should know that. You're
afraid, you are so scared of
letting yourself go, because
you've seen what it's like
to not be able to get yourself back.
And sometimes it HURTS.  I
don't know what's gotten into
me because I usually enjoy
living by the statement
"What I dont' know can't
hurt me" and even though
I know the answer to my
questions, sometimes you
just need to hear it.
See I know you don't love me
and that's ok, I don't really
know why I'd even bother asking
that question. Any how, anything
you've ever called me on, you've
been guilty of too.  So you say
I think I've got you figured out
but I really don't, well my dear
I do, because I sorry to say
were a lot alike. Not identical,
I know, but enough to where I've
got you figured out. I could
go on for pages about you and
who you are, but what good
would that do? You know.
I don't know what I'm trying to
prove perhaps I feel relief that
I can say it, because now I'm
turning back to what I hate.
The little bitch that won't
take shit from anyone, who
basically...doesn't care.
No, I shouldn't say I don't
care I do, too much and that's
why I'm not hiding behind my wall.
I just won't show emotion. That
way I can talk to people and not
be afraid to say anything...
because I won't let them
see they hurt me.

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