By Jon Angelo Deleon Santos
Date: 24 January 2001

He Didn't Know

He Didn't Know

....The day he met her he didn't know.....
....he didn't know what he was getting into...
........he just didn't know.......
.........sometimes he wonders if she knew....
....the day he met her he didn't know...
....he never expected to feel this way...
...he never wanted to....
......no one has ever made him feel that way....
.............everyone was so good at making him feel bad....
......why did she have to be different?....  
....he didn't know.....
....maybe she was part of his destiny...
...he didn't know...
....he never wanted to know....
....he never believed in much......
...but... 
....he believed in her....
....he didn't know why....
...but... 
....he put his trust in her...
...he didnt know...
....he didn't know she would mean the world to him...
...he never wanted her to....
...he didn't know...
....he didn't know he would love holding her close to him....
....he didn't know he would long to be near her and miss her...
....he never wanted to miss anyone.....
....he never missed anything before in his life....
....he didn't know he would end up missing her....
....he didn't know....
....he didn't know kissing her would be so passionate...
....he didn't know that her kisses would mean so much to him.....
....he never felt that way about anyone....
....he never expected to feel that way....
...he never wanted to...
....he didnt know...
....he didn't know that he has been waiting for her his whole life....
....he didn't know....
...he didn't want to know...
...he didn't know that he would see things in her eyes that he he has never seen before...
...he didn't know that while looking in her eyes he would see a part of himself...
...a part of  himself no one ever knew before...
....he didn't know that within her eyes he would find himself...
...he didn't know that with her in his life he would reach perfection...
....he never expected her to mean that much to him...
....he didn't know....
....he never wanted to know...
...he never believed in love...
...he never wanted to....
....he always heard about it in love songs and movies...
....love sounded so peaceful and joyful...
...but... 
....he believed it wasn't for him...
....he never wanted to know what it was like to love let alone be loved....
....he didn't know....
...he said "I love yous" in the past....
...but...
 ...never knew the meaning of it...
....he felt like his heart and hers were intertwined as one...
....that their soul was one split into two beings...
...he didn't know...
...he didn't know why she was different....
...why she made him feel like that.....
....why she made him feel like he would give up everything for her...
...he never wanted to feel this way....
....he didn't know...
...he didn't want to know....
...he told her his deepest and most painful secrets hoping she would erase them... 
..and.. 
...replace them with happy ones...
...he didn't know....
...he didn't know he would love her.....
...he never expected too...
...he tried his hardest not to fall in love...
...but... 
...he couldnt help it....
....he just couldn't bring himself to push her away and hurt her.....
...he didn't know he would love her so....
...he didn't know that while being with her love would be defined...
...he didn't know.....
..he didn't want to know.......
...he was so used to feeling bad....
...but....
 ....this girl was different...
...he vowed to love her...
...he didn't know that she would brake his vow against his will.....
...he didn't know that she would turn away the only real feeling he has ever known....
...and...
 ...now he knows what love is...
...and...
 ...now he knows how much her love means to him...
...he knows now everything he didn't want to know...
!....don't you understand....?
....he didn't know!...
.....he never wanted to know!...
....Why did she have to tell him?....
...That my heart would brake.....
...that she would leave me behind....
...and...
...close her heart to mine.....
...and hurt me......
...............................
.....I didn't know.....
..................................
................I never wanted to know.........