By RainbowChaser
Date: 2002 Nov 18
Comment on this Work
[[2002.11.18.11.50.32131]]

Don't do me like this

Don't do me like this
don't say that you are my friend
then give me the cold shoulder
for something that i didn't do to hurt you

What you must remember is that I've been hurt
and that I need to protect myself
to stand up for myself
and to stop being a doormat

if it means that I hurt you
I'm sorry
but don't treat me like this
and don't pretend that I did this to hurt you

You can't possibly understand this situation
or you wouldn't act like a wounded child
you like him more than you let on
it's painfully obvious

But don't make me feel like shit
for something that I've made a perfectly rational decision
I used my head, not just my heart
and the conclusion was well thought out

I didn't tell you no at first because I knew
that you would hate me for it
and would mistake my reason as jealousy
but that's not it

It's the idea that this memory won't be ours to share
that you will always have this bond with him
that I can't experience
get over it, and find someone new

He's not yours, he's mine
I'm sorry to be blunt
but sometimes i think you forget
I know you're lonely

I know you think I don't love you like the sister I should
But I do
but I'm also learning to love myself, and stand up
and it means telling you no

Telling you no for reasons you can't understand
don't hate me
don't treat me like this
forget about it, and move on

You'll find someone better
you'll have fun
and you will survive
don't forget

there are so many things goin on in my head right now
please continue to love me and be my friend
but if not, i guess it's your loss
and it's better i learn now

I would die for you
and I love you more than the world
and would do anything for you
except this

Please don't be upset
but know that i love you
look at it from my position
as i have from yours

and from where i stand
it is the best solution for all involved
this experience is a couple experience
not one to be shared by an outsider

sorry to sound rude
but you are hurting me, slowly stabbing a blade in me
it's not that this has never happened
i just never expected it from you

I guess that's what i get for trusting
what i get for hoping
that you could be what you seem
but either way, i will always love you, understand that if nothing else