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By Lulu Date: 2003 Mar 03 Comment on this Work [[2003.03.03.13.33.13772]] |
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I have come to the conclusion that we, are simply not meant to be. Its funny how easily that can be said, "just not meant to be"....it sounds so simple. Its funny how those 5 small innocent words can travel from my ears, through my head, down my neck and over my chest, then slowly, painfully, bitterly slice through my heart. Its funny how when I see you, Im suddenly ashamed of everything I am and everything I ever was. I am ashamed to be the owner of this body, this soul, this mind. I am ashamed for not being who you want me to be. Its funny how I can care so much, how I can keep hope for so long, how I can apologize and forgive so many times... and you never care. Its funny how you can make me want to hide, you make me want to turn away and run. You make me feel as if I am not deserving of anything but pure hate and torture. Its funny how I could look death in the face and laugh, yet I am too afraid to meet your eyes. Its funny how I lay awake at night thinking about you and everything I did wrong. How I analyze every step and turning point of our friendship. How I want to grab you and force you to hear my cries. And yet its funny, How you dont think of me, how you dont hear me, how you act like im not there. So tell me....are you laughing? |