By Misti
Date: 2004 Jun 02
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Tossing & Turning/Yearning For The Impossible Per Fuckin' Usual

don't want to see Meme and Pop starin' at me from a field
of hot air balloons
so I replace that wallpaper image
with a photo of a Mcdonald's in Manitowoc, Wisconsin
it could be early evening or early morning
found the image at Google
I am destined to eat limp salty French fries there
alone and wondering
gorgeous and bloated
too much hope and fear is keeping me awake
I am aching, again
spinning the Wheel of Fortune
landing on Rune Number Nine
the rune of change
you told me the name but I forget it
and even if I remembered it I couldn't spell it
we didn't expect each other
we bumped into each other in the Cosmic Grocery Store
I couldn't believe you were allergic to peanut butter
you couldn't believe all the popsicles in my basket
we took each other on
I loved your laugh and your hands and your timing
you loved my mix tapes and sarcasm and Poet Chick in Love with President Bush skit
we hit it off right away
and I made a sacrifice that wasn't really a sacrifice
left a dead marriage and a false sense of security
so that I could get
to the bottom
of you
you gladly let me because you sensed our potential
that's what you tell me
if I had been any other woman we wouldn't have happened
because I was married and you weren't ready for the
sickening chaos of new romance
we took a chance and danced to Billie Holiday and Otis Redding in my tiny cluttered candlelit apartment
we chased down the ice cream truck on a rainy spring day
we sang karaoke like it was made for us
and oh we made love like it was brand-new
how appropriate the Garden of Eden in the desert
in March
I always wanted to be a springtime bride
and now the ride has come to an end
I'll be your friend forever
because I can do that
marathon phone chats into the sunrise
but it won't be the same as you looking into my eyes
saying How Do You Do That, Misti? How Do You Make Your Eyes Change Colors?
me playing the role
being corny because that's what I feel
telling you It's Magic
and I Do it For You