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By Misti Date: 2004 Oct 12 Comment on this Work [[2004.10.12.18.49.20547]] |
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in doctor's offices I read your paperback copy of A People's History of the United States wow I never knew Columbus was such a fucking asshole never knew the way slaves were transported to this beautiful continent I never thought it was the Titanic but goddamn hunched over in their own shit suffocating some of them jumping overboard preferring drowning to dying slowly in their own excrement oh, the beauty of commerce people say what would our forefathers think of the way things are today you say they would fit right in and of course I agree everyone around me is greedy self-absorbed blind to my dilemma I should have studied harder and partied less in college my poems and novels and screenplays and collages don't mean shit still I create having nothing I dream up a helluva lot more I continue singing lullabies to deaf ears I am a slave and I made myself this way you don't mind my chains but you don't have the key we talk of leaving once Bush is re-elected I tell you the rich people will move to Europe people like you and me will move to Canada and Mexico we have nothing to keep us here we lose a little more everyday until I am catatonic and you are sleeping it off Darvosets and Jose Cuervo blunt the jagged edges Mom tries tirelessly to lure me back to Texas so rich with religion conformity good jobs all kinds of restaurants and malls I will not be a sheep I will die first I will die knowing I will die seeing I will die feeling I will not live another convenient comfortable lie I will try as long and as hard as I can and then I will give up without grace and without apology. |